Prom Date

The prom is coming soon. It's on Saturday actually...Ow...It's todayyyy Everyone is kinda busy looking for a date. And I am going alone (after nights of consideration). I asked someone to go with me to the prom (yea, u read it right.. I asked someone...not asked by someone). Erm.. it's not like what you think but... alright... just make it as I am the one who ask. OK?

He is someone that I've been talking about lately. He is someone who I keep (and not supposed to) thinking of. I like him, yea I do. However I just feel it is really wrong to go with him. In his eyes, Im just another random girl that appear on his mind whenever he's horny. I should not go with him. I must not go with him...

I decided not to go with him after all.
If you ask me now... I still do have a feeling for him. I am still happy whenever I read his messages to me. I am still happy whenever I see him. I am still happy when he hug me from the back. I am still happy that whenever I go to his place(he owns most of the clubs), he will talk to me first instead of my friends.

But I am not happy that he ignored me sometimes. I am not happy that he never remember my performance date, venue and time (although I've remind him already). I am not happy when he asked why I did not remind him about my performance (which I did). I am not happy when he reply my long message with a short one.

I know that he is much more older than me and he is more mature than me and do not care about all these little stuff. SO...the point is... I am the stupid one expecting him to care about me. I am nobody. Why should he care about me?

Last year my date for prom was Zarif. He was such a sweetheart. I just realized that I never put the story here...
During Raya last year, we held an open house and he was invited. He was my idol at that time so I was kinda nervous when he was around. I tried to find a topic and the only thing that came to my mind was prom.
Me : Are you goin to the prom?
Him : Only if you're my date (*grin*)
Me : (do nothing and just smile like a stupid and shock) Ha. Ha. Ha. Really?
Him : Yea..(*another grin*)
Me : (thinking "WTF")

Raya was over and when the prom is near, no news from him and then he sent me a message:
Him : Are you goin to the prom with me?
Me : Are you going? I thought you are not going?
Him : If Im going, Can I have the pleasure to have you there with me?
Me : (Freakin shit...I cannot stop smiling) Yea sure =)

Truly speaking, this is the first time a guy ever asked me as his date to a prom. And, the person who asked that is the person is my idol at that moment. Of course I am happy. Rite? Feel kinda stupid now... Please just ignored me. LoL


We were so casual that night. Luckily I didnt wear such a fancy dress or whatsoever. LoL
From that moment on, he has been very sweet. Even after the prom he is still very sweet.

Why can't my date-dat-has-been-cancelled act like that? As a friend...
Sigh...
What am I talking about?

Kinda off topic...
What I am trying to say... It's OK to go to the prom without date. ROckS your single world, LadieS!! =)

ps: full report on Egie's bday, Raya and Prom coming soon. LoL