30 September 2007

End of the month. Had the lovely experience during Miss E Bday. Will talk more about it later. What I wanted to say now is the end of the month.

End of the month. Makes me feel both exited and worry. Excited because holiday is coming and worry because exam is coming closer. Im getting more and more worry coz everything and everyone in getting older from day to day. End of month makes me think of "end". At the first day of each month I like to think about how should I spent the month but it never happen. Sigh.

Alright. I dun feel like writing actually... Just want to have a post at the end of the month =)

Death and Reality

I heard loads of bad news from various sources. And most of them are about the death of their love ones. My friend's brother, my friend's friend, my friend's aunt, and MY friend.

Truly speaking. Im not a type of person who can deal with death. I will never can understand why a person has to die... I know that we have this "circle" of life but I STILL cannot accept the fact that someone will die someday.
It is said that we must be positive toward every problem. So we shouldnt think that someone will get any accident soon... Do you get what I mean? I mean, we should not over-worried about something because it might really happen to us... And when it happen... we will just start blame ourselves for keep thinking about it.

Like my favorite blogger said... Life is just a distraction... He prefer not to be exposed. And since not many people read my blog, I wanna keep this link in my blog. I love his sense of humor =)

Back to distraction. It does feel hurts. He said that everyday we keep thinking what are we going to do next, what are going to do tomorrow, who are we going to date, when are we going to married...Those things are uncertain... Not certain... Not always there tomorrow. We might die today, you know... Sounds harsh... It is the reality though...

I think what we should do is just love our love one everyday. By telling them how much we love them is the best thing that we can do. So we wont regret anything in the future...

Chat with Wilson

This is my chat with Wilson (my vice) yesterday:

[17:43] HaR...My name is Haryati: wilson
[17:43] HaR...My name is Haryati: did u receive my msg?
[17:43] Wilson: ooi
[17:43] Wilson: about the leo one?
[17:43] HaR...My name is Haryati: ya
[17:43] Wilson: its postponed leh
[17:43] Wilson: not on the 20th oct
[17:43] Wilson: my fren told me one
[17:43] Wilson: and..... swin carnival wans us 2 dance o
[17:44] Wilson: sssc wans us 2 dance during carnival
[17:44] HaR...My name is Haryati: yeah
[17:44] HaR...My name is Haryati: i knw
[17:44] HaR...My name is Haryati: when is dat?
[17:45] Wilson: carnival....
[17:45] Wilson: wait ah
[17:46] Wilson: leo dinner not confirmed
[17:46] Wilson: carnival's 20 and 21 nex month
[17:47] HaR...My name is Haryati: ic
[17:47] HaR...My name is Haryati: i forgot da date
[17:47] HaR...My name is Haryati: hehe
[17:47] HaR...My name is Haryati: then we hav to performlor
[17:47] HaR...My name is Haryati: hav to prepare lor
[17:47] HaR...My name is Haryati: i wan 4 dances
[17:49] Wilson: wah.....
[17:49] Wilson: can can
[17:49] HaR...My name is Haryati: yeee
[17:49] HaR...My name is Haryati: i like to hear dat
[17:50] Wilson: haha
[17:50] HaR...My name is Haryati: mostly people will say "ha? dun wan lah
[17:50] HaR...My name is Haryati: =p
[17:51] Wilson: 4 dances for when ha?
[17:51] Wilson: the carnival?
[17:51] HaR...My name is Haryati: ya lo
[17:52] Wilson: hmmm..... can
[17:52] HaR...My name is Haryati: =D
[17:52] HaR...My name is Haryati: gud
[17:53] HaR...My name is Haryati: i allocate 1 dances for the girls
[17:53] HaR...My name is Haryati:
[17:53] Wilson: oooo.....
[17:53] Wilson: cool
[17:53] HaR...My name is Haryati: i dun wanna perform liao oo
[17:53] HaR...My name is Haryati: u guys perform only
[17:53] HaR...My name is Haryati: leo installation oso
[17:54] Wilson: ha??/
[17:54] Wilson: why?
[17:54] Wilson: u shud la.....
[17:54] HaR...My name is Haryati: prom nite oso
[17:54] HaR...My name is Haryati: then i can wear my dress
[17:54] HaR...My name is Haryati: hehe
[17:54] Wilson: aiks
[17:55] Wilson: but where got girls can dance as good as u....

Wow... Do you know how happy I was when I read that? =D

I want this shoe

One thing that I noticed lately is the new style of shoe which has become a trend. Im not following the trend. Im not the type of person that follow the trend. But for this time, I like this shoe. I like it so much. I don't know why but I like this style for soooo long. And now it become a trend which means I can find it everywhere.

Advantage: I can find the shoe easily
Disavantage: There will be bunch of people wearing the same shoe!!!

So what am I going to do? Tell me...
Alright... The problem with this shoe is... it wont suit my d@mn fat foot. Not that I have an elephant's leg... but it does look ugly on my feet. But I believe I will find the one that suit my feet. Which is really really hard...

The shoe... I like it RED

I also like it WHITE. They are so... You know... =)

And also BLACK... Red and Black are sexy... =pYou might think that Im crazy for choosing 3 shoes with the same style but different in color... Well, You better look at them one more time. It is called temptation... (And I dun mean it the "temptation fish" as one of the menu from Patience Daily).

The other shoe that I like is the sling back shoe... Like this one...

Alright... will take a picture of my shoe once I got my hand on one... =)

Research

Im currently in da open lab doing something that Im quite sure everyone hates about. Research. Unless you're searching for your those girls in bikini (for guys) or those cute surfer-guy (for da girls), research is something that make people feel sick although they are ok. I mean, cmon...

I was searching for this expert system for artificial intelligent tasks. And guess what did I get. Porn site... Expert blow job system. I think that is quite far from what I meant...

Anyway, why do women concern about how they look? Sometimes Im feeling like ignoring all those things but the reality force me to look back and think again. So, here I am, on a diet. Now, this is what Im talking about the research that we are interested in. So I found this South Beach Diet from a magazine and try to find what I should and shouldnt eat. And they gave me thousand of list which I CANNOT consume during the phase 1.

I had this bet with my brother, I have to lost some weight by the time he come. If I win, he will treat me somewhere nice (I pick the place) and if I lost, Im the one who treat him and my sister-in-law. Great. They like to eat. My bro warn me: "You better be winning since you know how much money you need to prepare if you lose". Great. Thanks for the warning. Now I NEED to lost weight...

In the memory of DONNY

Dear all,
I have a very bad news. A friend of mine, DONNY has passed away 2 months ago. He was robbed and thrown into the river and died. I cannot hate the robber since it will do me no good. But I am so damn hurt inside.

He is my... well... my friend who wanted us to be more than that. If you know what I mean. He is(I cannot afford to use past tense) a very nice person yet so naughty. He likes to bully people. He always call me, every time he got the chance. Until one day, he called me and read me series of date and numbers. I was like "what the hell is wrong with this kid". And guess what? It was the phone bill. And, 80% of the recipient is my phone number.
What I remember from him is his phone-call. Now, Im gonna write some phone conversation that I remember, and I like...

Conversation 1 (I need to write this 'conversation' because every other conversation will start with this 'bad habit' of him)
*ring ring
Me : hallo
Him: ...
Me : hallo?
Him: ...
Me : hallo?
Him: ...
Me : haaaalllloooooo? (start to feel irritated by the person-who-called-but-not-speaking)
Him: hallo...
Me : ow...you! Why dun u talk?
Him: nothing...
Me : ha? Why is the purpose to call if u dun talk?
Him: to hear your voice (what a bullshit...)
Me : ha? Anything...

Conversation 2
(Tuesday nite)
Him: what are u doin?
Me : listening to the radio..
Him: what? Radio? Why radio? I dun think there's anything special with the radio.
Me : hey! Who said radio is not interesting? I like the DJ's voice. And also Im currently in love with one song...
Him: hm... Really?
Me : yes! U try to listen to it every Tuesday and Thursday from 8pm-10pm.
Him: I dun wan to listen to the radio...
Me : (feeling like a stupid) alright...up to you

(Thursday nite)
I called the radio and request for a song (my favorite song at that time) and dedicated it for some of my friends. Then soon as I hung up ...*ring ring
Me : hallo?
Him: how come you didnt dedicate it for me as well?
Me : what?
Him: the song... u dedicated it for you friends. What about me?
Me : I thought u dun listen to the radio?
Him: well, I am, now.

He is so sweet...

Conversation 3
*ring ring
Me : hello?
Him: ...
(since this is always happening to me, I get used to it already then I decided to keep quite)
after 5 minute...
Him: you prince charming is coming

Hehe... Im watching a movie which played by a handsome actor. He knew that. And he "accompany" me to watch the movie... =)

Conversation 4
*ring ring (at the middle of the night)
Me : what?
Him: huh? U havent sleep yet?
Me : already... And u woke me up
Him: haha... gud...
Me : what? Talk to you tomoro, k?
Him: alright... go to sleep...

*ring ring (5 minutes later)
Me : what?
Him: huh? Havent sleep yet? Waiting for my call huh?
Me : what? No! (which I think I do now)
Him: Ow, u must be lying.
Me : no...
Him: (feeling very happy for bullying me) hehehe... alright...gud nite
Me : gud nite~~

*ring ring (5 minutes later)
Me : what????
Him: see, you are waiting for my call...
Me : (can't help myself not to smile)
Him: (laughing like hell)
Me : i didnt... (really wanna laugh)
Him: (still laughing) ok ok... bye... this one for real... Are you sure you were not waiting for my call? Im hanging up...
Me : Yes. Im sure. Hehe... Bye!

Conversation 5
Him: Hey, where is your house again?
Me : I dunno.
Him: why you dun wanna tell me? What is so hard? Just tell me.
Me : I dunno where my house is (feeling very happy for this answer).
Him: fine. Im going there tomorrow.
Me : as if you can find it...

(the day after) --
My mom: someone was looking for DD7 house... I told him there is no DD7 here. We only have odd number which will be DD 2, 4, 6, etc.

*ring ring
Him: you lied to me.
Me : what?
Him: there is no DD7
Me : I didnt tell you that my house number is 7...
Him: so what is your house's number?
Me : I dunno...
Him: oh my God...

Apparently, my house number is 6 and I had no idea where did he get my address from... =)

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Next, I want to write this message he sent me... Which I like the most...

Him: Merry X'mas and Happy New Year 2003
Me : Merry X'mas and Happy New Year 2003
Him: Hey, where are you? What are you doin now?
Me : At my friend's house. Watching movie (a boring way to celebrate x'mas). What about you?
Him: I see. Im trying to talk to Santa Claus. To ask him for a present.
Me : What? Ok...
Him: Im asking him to make you as my girlfriend. Do you think he will give me my present?

I dun wanna continue this story because I wanna keep it nice. But for your information... Nothing had happened between me and him =)

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I cannot believe he is not here. If I pray, will he be able to listen to me? I just want to say something to him. I regret I didnt say this long time ago. Now I know what does "you will not know how precious someone is until you lost them" means...

If he is reading this right now, I wish to say:

If you are still here to ask another present from the Santa Claus again, I am sure he will give you the present...
And, Im going to ask for the same present...
And last but not least, Thank You~

What The F*CK?!

Yes, it is no longer what the H. It becomes what the F now...
So, I was doing my coding for the C++ assignment when the computer suddenly off. Yes...off, just like that. And, to be more details, all the file you put on the computer will gone. ALL files. Again... ALL files. Which included my file. MY CODING file. My f*ckin assignment. Congratz me please?

KFC Delivery

Im sure everyone has eat KFC before. Right? I mean the chicken, not the KFC restaurant. And Im sure you know what delivery is. So, Im gonna talk about KFC Delivery service.

Yesterday, is the lazy day. Why? Because yesterday known as Sunday! It's the day when [the girls] in my house will just stay at home, not going anywhere, unless there is something to do. My [sister] went back to Khuntien-Pontianak-Indonesia...I dun like dat. I wish she can stay longer. Once I left the bus station, I already knew that it's gonna be a d@mn boring day. And I was right...

I went back home and then I decided to get my shower and then open the window of the room (which is a rare thing to do). and then I read my C++ how to program. And then I fell asleep from 11am-1pm.

Miss [L] woke me up and asked me whether I would like to order anything because they were going to call the KFC for a delivery. So I said yes. Then, still feeling sleepy, I went back to sleep. When I really woke up 1 hour later, the delivery was not there yet. Then we wait and wait and wait and then I feel asleep (again). Well, Im sorry, I just couldnt help it, told you it was a boring day.

When I woke up, it is 3pm. I was hungry. Then I heard all the story about the delivery. So it is like this, [L] called to order the meal from KFC and then the [manager] picked up the phone and noted down the order, our address, and [L]'s phone number. After waiting for so long, [L] called them again and ask or the delivery, [manager] then said that they DUN KNOW WHERE FLORIDALE IS. Ok... so she told them. And they say would send it soon.

After waiting for 3 hours, Im angry. Seriously. You dun wan to make me angry. Really. Then I asked for the telephone number and called the [manager]. I was screaming like hell. (I told you. You dun wanna make me angry).

{and due to the very long conversation, I dun think Im gonna write it here}...

Then we got our food. Finally. at 4pm. Then guess what? They forgot the rice. What the H? Fine, so the [manager] said he knew he forgot the rice. So (again) he had to come to send the rice.

This time, the [delivery boy] came with the [manager] who's actually 'not bad'...if you know what I mean. His name is [Leslie] which actually sounds like a girls name instead of a guys name. He is still so young; late twenty I suppose. But of coz, I was still angry with him. I couldnt forgive him just because he is not bad.

But really... he is not bad... Hm... I think Im going to have KFC again this weekend =p

It is simple... isnt it?

Few weeks ago (Im not sure when is the exact date), I went to the Coffee Bean with Miss Sach and Miss Summer. So there we are. Having this ladies-talk (not girls-talk since we are no longer small little girl). And suddenly summer popped a simple question to me:

Summer: Hey, among all the girls who do you think is the closest with you?
Me: (thinking)
Summer: ...
Sach: ...
Summer: yes?
Me: ... (confuse)
Sach: Me? (pointing herself)
Me: yeah... true... it's Sach... I dun think there is any of the girls that Im close with...
Summer: huh? (confuse)
Sach: yeah...
Me: yeah... I think I can answer that question easily if you ask me 1 year ago. It would be Miss R... Not anymore now...

That "simple" question then become "not-so-simple" question for me after all...
Something wrong with me? Something wrong with the world? The world is turning their back on me, or Im turning my back on the world? It is just a simple question...isnt it?

Mr. Vincensius Agustian Chandra

Who is he? He is Vin-Vin. Yup. That is Vin-Vin' full name. Yes. Im referring to my 'best-friend', Vin-Vin.

He is my best buddy. I can talk loads of things to him. I like to talk to him. Im happy having him as my friend. He always gives me suggestion when I got a problem (instead of making me even more confuse, like what other people do). In short, I like him.

But, he wont talk to me now. What is his problem? All of a sudden he dun wanna talk to me anymore. What the H? He makes me confuse. Im blank. Have no idea. Why is he like that to me? If there's anything wrong, can't he just tell me? Scream at me or whatsoever. He cannot just keep silent like that! That frustrates me!

We had this fight last time. Well, not a fight. It was da same thing. He wont talk to me. I was confused (as I am now). I ask my friends, Mr. Franc. He wont say anything about that. I was sure that he knew something. Then finally he told me that Vin2 was irritated by the gossip between me and him. The gossip was like a disaster. The gossips says: "VinVin and Har will get married after school"...WHAT THE HELL? Who? Who? Me? Him? We? Both of us? Are you sure? Me and him? Him and me? Vincensius Agustian Chandra and Haryati Sugianto? That is a big no no!!! Who want to marry their own brother? Well, I know some people do, but majority no. Rite? Cmon. Can't I have a best-friend who is apparently a guy? So I can only have female friend? Think! Use your brain! Oh my~~ Why dun they say that Im gonna marry Franc as well (since he is also one of my best buddy)? Those people need help.

I dunno who to blame. Feel like wanna kill those people who spread stupid news. Or I wanna angry with VinVin for not telling me anything and just ignore me instead.

That was settled. Done. But now, he's acting like that again. What is wrong? Can someone please tell me?

Again, I ask Franc but he know nothing about that problem this time. So I ask his help to ask VinVin. He did. And the result?
Franc : he wont tell. weird guy...
Me : what? why? wat did u say to him?
Franc : i said "why do u ignore her. wat is wrong?". Then he said there's nothing wrong.
Me : he didnt say anything else? But he did agreed that he ignore me?
Franc : I dunno. Didnt ask further...

WTH?

I have tried to call him like, what, 100 times? He didnt answer my call.
I wish him happy birthday on 17 August. He didnt even say thank you to me. I remembered his bday! He didnt wish me happy bday on my bday this year. Im broken-hearted you know...

I just hope he will talk to me again.

ps: will post my picture and him tomorrow...

Annoying singer

Do you like to listen to music? So do I. But when a singer become annoying? Oh no~~ It's like a disaster. My fren, who likes to sing, become one of those annoying singer. I can understand she like to sing and that's her hobby. But, Im so sori, I dun like her voice and they way she sings it. I can give thousand of reason why I dun like it when she sing:
She doesnt see the condition around her when she sing.
She doesnt know that she cannot sing it.
She doesnt know the lyric but force to sing it.
She doesnt know that sometimes people would like to listen to the music without any interrupting sound around...
She just...doesnt get it...

Oh my~
Nevermind. I just post this to... to calm myself down.
SHE!!
alright~~
I stop...
Cya

updated [20 September 2007]:
If you happen to read this, and u knw dat Im talking about u. Im so sori. Dun stop the signing, I was jus not in da mood. But yea, sometimes you are annoying and I did tell u... And if you sing it seriously (I mean really sing it) I will be very happy to listen =p

My Friends

I think it is going to be very difficult to talk about people around me if I dun introduce them 1st. So here I am. Giving their profile. However, I wont state their real name here.

Miss Sach
Here goes the very beautiful friend of mine. She has this long n nice hair, fair skin, and so much more. (Hopefully she will never read this or else she will do something that you dun wanna know). She stays at the same condominium as mine but in the different block. She can cook (and we always ask her to cook for us) =p

Miss Summer
She is Miss Sach' house mate. She is funny. How to explain this? Kinda innocent. And seems like she believe everything. But I like her sense of fashion. She is cool. And her dream is to get a tan like... like... well... loads of example. ok? Hehe... All da best for her.

The Girls (so, everytime I mention "The Girls", it refer to these 4 girls -- who stay wif me)
Miss R
She was my best-friend. Why do I use the word 'was'? I will explain it in the next post. She has this problem wif her hair. She loves her hair so much.

Miss E
She is one of the girls as well. She is a romantic girl. She like something cute, nice, romantic, touching... well, those kind of things.

Miss L
This one is mentally retarded. Well, not that bad. But we always say that she is mentally retarded. Hehe. Kiddin, of coz. She is the one who always clean the house and she is da one who is very patience and say yes to almost everything.

Miss S
She is... dangdut lover, so I can say. She is funny and also very patience. She likes cow and white color. Perhaps because cow is white and black? Well, God knows.

Now I will introduce the guys:
Mr. U
He is Miss S' bf. Now, u got dat. Hehe. He afraid of dogs. He afraid...of dogs. Really. So dun ever bring any puppy for him. Hehe. His hobby is farting. Yes, Im serious. Farting.

Mr. N
He was... He is our friend who become our daddy. Altho we're not that close n'more. Who know why? He knows. His hobby (I hope by the time I type this his hobby is still da same) is photography and he is gud at it.

I will update this post if there's anything I would like to introduce =)

Money

Dont money always bring "problem" along with them? They do sometimes bring happiness. But mostly they come with problem. Why do I say so? Because that is what happened to me now. And this post is not a funny post. It's serious post. If you dont like to read something serious, please just skip this.

Let me tell you what. First of all, to make the story easier, you need to know that my uncle (my mother's bro) is in the hospital. He is suffering from diabetes, kidney problem, his heart pump slowly, and many more. In short, he is having this compound fracture thing. Surely not a good news for me. And surely not a good news for my mom. Which of coz, not a good news for my dad.

Truly speaking, without exaggerate it, my dad is a very generous person. My mom's family is not a rich family (Im not saying that my dad is rich). My mom has an older bro, 2 younger sis, and 1 younger bro. One of my mom's sister has passed away because of womb cancer. I love her so much. I feel sorry for my mom. The other sis of my mom is a very tough and shy lady, she never ask any help from my mom. Perhaps because she thinks it wont be nice asking money from my mom or perhaps because she is shy, who knows.

The younger bro of my mom has 3 children who bring loads of problem for my family (my dad specifically). He is unemployed. My father gave him job, which he never do it correctly. His eldest son, ask money to get married (he never talk straight to my dad's face-he talk through my mom). His 2nd son, always ask for money for any kind of reason (he never talk straight to my dad as well). His youngest child, his daughter, sometimes she asks for money. Sometimes she doesnt...at least not always...

And now, the older bro of my mom is sick. Guess who pays for the hospital? Yes, you guessed it right. MY DAD. Can you feel what my mom feel? Do you understand how doubtful she is when she ask for the money?

What frustrates me more is that I cannot be a good daughter myself. I even failed one of my subjects last time. Why cannot I just study well? Why am I so lazy? I know it is because of my commitment is not strong enough. I regret every time that I spent here (including blogging). But I need to write this. I need to talk. I need to tell someone. Although blog cannot speak back to me. But I need to let it out from me. So here I am...so called "talking" to my blog...

I dun post funny things. I post darkness and guess what? I dun care.