JUNE

It's June again. From all the memorial months I had with Ian. June is the most precious one. It is impossible not to think bout what we had. Rather than I waste my energy to push it back deep into my heart, I prefer to just lay it on the table.

I want to start with a song called Soul Fly. This is a very special song for me because, as what he told me, it's made for me. My song.

'Just be yourself', you told me
Just do the things you do
Your brilliance it blinds me, 
like a strikes of million stars


Without you I would be alone and lost,
in the world full of monsters
And now your love, it surrounds me
like a warm blanket on a cold, cold day


And even tough you are not here with me,
except your spirit, I feel myself raised up
And tonight I wish that you are in my arms,
lying in my arms, sleep in my arms, close to my heart...
And so for you, I would be myself


I remember that night when we were just chillin. He was browsing trough his new sounds collection when I heard this lyric. I didn't listen to what she was saying but I noticed that she sounded very british (my fav accent).
Me : "Omg. She sounds very British!"
Him: "Yea..."
*we both listen to the lyrics (it was from the "and even tough you're not here with me...")
Him: "Hmm... Not bad. I think I'm gonna use this"

And there was no further conversation bout this song. I went back to Indonesia. I knew he was working on new songs but I honestly didn't know it was for me. He told me he was working on a song which was tricky and kinda hard to complete. On 06 July 2009, he's done with the song.

Overall I got 9 tracks, 'She's leaving the house' & 'soul fly' was made becoz of you =) (...)

I replied him and asked what does Soul Fly means...

Soul fly, very deep meaning actually, I got that name as it is related to what the gurl says in the vocal part... I dun have 9 tracks, instead I got 11 for now plus I've got one left out in different folder and another one is my award track, so I'm just gonna do another one to make it 12... 12 is 2 times 6, haha

It's him who realized the number SIX which kept on appearing around me and him (it still does appears around me up to today).

I know he mentioned two songs but I wanna start with the second song.. Soul Fly. Why? Because few days ago I found out that the tattoo on his left hand (my fav hand of his) is called... SOUL FLY.

Bob Sinclar

I love him. I mean... Cmoonnn... I love his music. And he's spinning at Dragonfly Club Jakarta while I'm blogging at home now. This is so not fair :( I really want to go there in the middle of the crowd and enjoy his music... I can almost imagine myself there. There are loads of places to go in Jakarta and yet I am at home :'(

Btw, trust me that I never know how does he look like until I saw the posters of him. Right there and then, I fell in love with him. Rebellious. Sexy in his own way. Great music. What's there not to like? Arghhh... Anyway, I think my favorite song from Bob is World Hold On. Especially when you listen to it with headphone (or earphone, any will do).

I've missed Pitbull concert last 12 May. And now I'm here at home when I know Bob Sinclar is here, in the same island with me, Jakarta.... And I'm here with my lovely Mac on my lap and blogging... :'(

Butttt... There's gonna be DJ battle on 3, 4, 5 June and I'm gonna be there. For sure! I don't wanna miss this one. Not anymore...

Happy 4th Birthday

Happy Birthday my dear blog :D
I have not been a good blogger but 4 years has been quite long and loads of story has been told.
Happy stories...
Sad stories...
Crazy stories...

Thank you my dear blog, you've been a very great listener and story keeper :)

Saturday

Sometimes I wonder whether I'm the stay-at-home type or the out-and-about type. I think when I have someone with me, I prefer to stay at home. Someone special. At least I'm sure I'll have something to do when someone special is around ;)

Watching DVDs for example... Owh cmoonn... What were you thinking, huh? I just want to put that picture there. It's one great picture :P

Anyway, apart from that, I think I prefer to go out. Especially when Im in Jakarta. I love the so-called Jakarta's Wall Street. The Sudirman area, Kuningan and all. It's the place where luxury is more important than any other thing. It's the place to flaunt your richness, to show everybody that you have MONEY.

There are loads of things to do in Jakarta. It will be perfect if I'm a DJ, have my own place at the Da Vince Tower and own a ride. It will be really great. It's what I called live to work. I get to do what I like to do and get paid for it. Then I don't need the special someone.

Well, if I feel like kissing someone............ I will kiss someone. As easy and as simple as that.

I love to go out. But when you go out, you know you'll spend some money :S
And I know I spend loads of money for God-knows-what (I don't even know what I bought). Therefore I need a job.

For the meantime, I'm just gonna stay at home...

Broad Back

I like guys with broad back. Is that weird? Come to think of it, I think it's kinda weird... Let's say I have a boyfriend and when we cuddle our convo goes like this...

Bf : "Baby, do you feel cold?"
Me : "Naaa.. As long as you broad back covers me, I won't feel cold"
Bf : "Aww baby... Are you sleepy? You can sleep on my shoulder.."
Me : "Naaa... I prefer to hug you from the back and lay on your broad back"
Bf : "...............Baby, what do you like from me?"
Me : "Your broad back"
Bf : "and then?"
Me : "..."
Bf : "..."
Me : "..."
and this can goes on and on

I am obsessed to broad back.. This is dangerous. Oh damn...

The Bestman

I have found the bestman. At first I asked my friend, Nico to help me in this. He couldn't make it. Since my ego is too high to ask any of my other friend, I asked Virgo Kid. He said yes... The whole trip is one me...

Yea. At first I was ok with it. Paying for the hotel. But now, come to think of it, I feel stupid. He keep on saying "have fun". I think the point of him coming is to have fun for free.  I'm just too stupid to realize. 

He asked his friends to come along with him which gave me more trouble. Well, his friend is my friend too but I didn't sign up for this. Anyway, I totally understand that he doesn't want to be alone here.

For now, I can only hope that everything's gonna be alright. I just want my sister wedding goes smoothly. And I will be very happy... *cross-fingers*

PS: My blog's birthday is coming soon. 30 May. Wow... 4 years... 

About Relationship

I was talking to Yola about relationship. She told me that some people, feel sad after break ups or separation or anything because they miss the feeling of having someone. You know.. Someone to wish you good night. Someone who text you. Someone who misses you. Someone who hold your hand. Someone who kiss you. Someone. That someone. 

Having someone is crucial that there's a term called "rebound girl/guy". And Yola made me realize that it is not the feeling of having someone that I miss. It's that one particular person that I miss so a rebound guy wouldn't help. And according to Yola, that's really terrible. 

I admit it. It's Ian who I want. It's Ian who I miss. It's Ian who I wanna kiss. And that IS terrible indeed. Pathetic to be exact. I am trying to gather myself. Put the pieces together and move on. And honestly, I've been doing bad. 

I was talking to Virgo Kid. He told me bout his ex girlfriend. When he told me bout his ex, I could see that he was all excited and happy. Suddenly I got jealous. Not because he was talking bout his ex, but because there's actually a guy like him in this world. A guy who really loves someone no matter what. He knew all the negative things bout her. He knew she's not perfect and yet he loves her. 

Maybe someday, that's how my husband gonna look like when he talks about me :)