Death and Reality

I heard loads of bad news from various sources. And most of them are about the death of their love ones. My friend's brother, my friend's friend, my friend's aunt, and MY friend.

Truly speaking. Im not a type of person who can deal with death. I will never can understand why a person has to die... I know that we have this "circle" of life but I STILL cannot accept the fact that someone will die someday.
It is said that we must be positive toward every problem. So we shouldnt think that someone will get any accident soon... Do you get what I mean? I mean, we should not over-worried about something because it might really happen to us... And when it happen... we will just start blame ourselves for keep thinking about it.

Like my favorite blogger said... Life is just a distraction... He prefer not to be exposed. And since not many people read my blog, I wanna keep this link in my blog. I love his sense of humor =)

Back to distraction. It does feel hurts. He said that everyday we keep thinking what are we going to do next, what are going to do tomorrow, who are we going to date, when are we going to married...Those things are uncertain... Not certain... Not always there tomorrow. We might die today, you know... Sounds harsh... It is the reality though...

I think what we should do is just love our love one everyday. By telling them how much we love them is the best thing that we can do. So we wont regret anything in the future...

Chat with Wilson

This is my chat with Wilson (my vice) yesterday:

[17:43] HaR...My name is Haryati: wilson
[17:43] HaR...My name is Haryati: did u receive my msg?
[17:43] Wilson: ooi
[17:43] Wilson: about the leo one?
[17:43] HaR...My name is Haryati: ya
[17:43] Wilson: its postponed leh
[17:43] Wilson: not on the 20th oct
[17:43] Wilson: my fren told me one
[17:43] Wilson: and..... swin carnival wans us 2 dance o
[17:44] Wilson: sssc wans us 2 dance during carnival
[17:44] HaR...My name is Haryati: yeah
[17:44] HaR...My name is Haryati: i knw
[17:44] HaR...My name is Haryati: when is dat?
[17:45] Wilson: carnival....
[17:45] Wilson: wait ah
[17:46] Wilson: leo dinner not confirmed
[17:46] Wilson: carnival's 20 and 21 nex month
[17:47] HaR...My name is Haryati: ic
[17:47] HaR...My name is Haryati: i forgot da date
[17:47] HaR...My name is Haryati: hehe
[17:47] HaR...My name is Haryati: then we hav to performlor
[17:47] HaR...My name is Haryati: hav to prepare lor
[17:47] HaR...My name is Haryati: i wan 4 dances
[17:49] Wilson: wah.....
[17:49] Wilson: can can
[17:49] HaR...My name is Haryati: yeee
[17:49] HaR...My name is Haryati: i like to hear dat
[17:50] Wilson: haha
[17:50] HaR...My name is Haryati: mostly people will say "ha? dun wan lah
[17:50] HaR...My name is Haryati: =p
[17:51] Wilson: 4 dances for when ha?
[17:51] Wilson: the carnival?
[17:51] HaR...My name is Haryati: ya lo
[17:52] Wilson: hmmm..... can
[17:52] HaR...My name is Haryati: =D
[17:52] HaR...My name is Haryati: gud
[17:53] HaR...My name is Haryati: i allocate 1 dances for the girls
[17:53] HaR...My name is Haryati:
[17:53] Wilson: oooo.....
[17:53] Wilson: cool
[17:53] HaR...My name is Haryati: i dun wanna perform liao oo
[17:53] HaR...My name is Haryati: u guys perform only
[17:53] HaR...My name is Haryati: leo installation oso
[17:54] Wilson: ha??/
[17:54] Wilson: why?
[17:54] Wilson: u shud la.....
[17:54] HaR...My name is Haryati: prom nite oso
[17:54] HaR...My name is Haryati: then i can wear my dress
[17:54] HaR...My name is Haryati: hehe
[17:54] Wilson: aiks
[17:55] Wilson: but where got girls can dance as good as u....

Wow... Do you know how happy I was when I read that? =D

I want this shoe

One thing that I noticed lately is the new style of shoe which has become a trend. Im not following the trend. Im not the type of person that follow the trend. But for this time, I like this shoe. I like it so much. I don't know why but I like this style for soooo long. And now it become a trend which means I can find it everywhere.

Advantage: I can find the shoe easily
Disavantage: There will be bunch of people wearing the same shoe!!!

So what am I going to do? Tell me...
Alright... The problem with this shoe is... it wont suit my d@mn fat foot. Not that I have an elephant's leg... but it does look ugly on my feet. But I believe I will find the one that suit my feet. Which is really really hard...

The shoe... I like it RED

I also like it WHITE. They are so... You know... =)

And also BLACK... Red and Black are sexy... =pYou might think that Im crazy for choosing 3 shoes with the same style but different in color... Well, You better look at them one more time. It is called temptation... (And I dun mean it the "temptation fish" as one of the menu from Patience Daily).

The other shoe that I like is the sling back shoe... Like this one...

Alright... will take a picture of my shoe once I got my hand on one... =)

Research

Im currently in da open lab doing something that Im quite sure everyone hates about. Research. Unless you're searching for your those girls in bikini (for guys) or those cute surfer-guy (for da girls), research is something that make people feel sick although they are ok. I mean, cmon...

I was searching for this expert system for artificial intelligent tasks. And guess what did I get. Porn site... Expert blow job system. I think that is quite far from what I meant...

Anyway, why do women concern about how they look? Sometimes Im feeling like ignoring all those things but the reality force me to look back and think again. So, here I am, on a diet. Now, this is what Im talking about the research that we are interested in. So I found this South Beach Diet from a magazine and try to find what I should and shouldnt eat. And they gave me thousand of list which I CANNOT consume during the phase 1.

I had this bet with my brother, I have to lost some weight by the time he come. If I win, he will treat me somewhere nice (I pick the place) and if I lost, Im the one who treat him and my sister-in-law. Great. They like to eat. My bro warn me: "You better be winning since you know how much money you need to prepare if you lose". Great. Thanks for the warning. Now I NEED to lost weight...

In the memory of DONNY

Dear all,
I have a very bad news. A friend of mine, DONNY has passed away 2 months ago. He was robbed and thrown into the river and died. I cannot hate the robber since it will do me no good. But I am so damn hurt inside.

He is my... well... my friend who wanted us to be more than that. If you know what I mean. He is(I cannot afford to use past tense) a very nice person yet so naughty. He likes to bully people. He always call me, every time he got the chance. Until one day, he called me and read me series of date and numbers. I was like "what the hell is wrong with this kid". And guess what? It was the phone bill. And, 80% of the recipient is my phone number.
What I remember from him is his phone-call. Now, Im gonna write some phone conversation that I remember, and I like...

Conversation 1 (I need to write this 'conversation' because every other conversation will start with this 'bad habit' of him)
*ring ring
Me : hallo
Him: ...
Me : hallo?
Him: ...
Me : hallo?
Him: ...
Me : haaaalllloooooo? (start to feel irritated by the person-who-called-but-not-speaking)
Him: hallo...
Me : ow...you! Why dun u talk?
Him: nothing...
Me : ha? Why is the purpose to call if u dun talk?
Him: to hear your voice (what a bullshit...)
Me : ha? Anything...

Conversation 2
(Tuesday nite)
Him: what are u doin?
Me : listening to the radio..
Him: what? Radio? Why radio? I dun think there's anything special with the radio.
Me : hey! Who said radio is not interesting? I like the DJ's voice. And also Im currently in love with one song...
Him: hm... Really?
Me : yes! U try to listen to it every Tuesday and Thursday from 8pm-10pm.
Him: I dun wan to listen to the radio...
Me : (feeling like a stupid) alright...up to you

(Thursday nite)
I called the radio and request for a song (my favorite song at that time) and dedicated it for some of my friends. Then soon as I hung up ...*ring ring
Me : hallo?
Him: how come you didnt dedicate it for me as well?
Me : what?
Him: the song... u dedicated it for you friends. What about me?
Me : I thought u dun listen to the radio?
Him: well, I am, now.

He is so sweet...

Conversation 3
*ring ring
Me : hello?
Him: ...
(since this is always happening to me, I get used to it already then I decided to keep quite)
after 5 minute...
Him: you prince charming is coming

Hehe... Im watching a movie which played by a handsome actor. He knew that. And he "accompany" me to watch the movie... =)

Conversation 4
*ring ring (at the middle of the night)
Me : what?
Him: huh? U havent sleep yet?
Me : already... And u woke me up
Him: haha... gud...
Me : what? Talk to you tomoro, k?
Him: alright... go to sleep...

*ring ring (5 minutes later)
Me : what?
Him: huh? Havent sleep yet? Waiting for my call huh?
Me : what? No! (which I think I do now)
Him: Ow, u must be lying.
Me : no...
Him: (feeling very happy for bullying me) hehehe... alright...gud nite
Me : gud nite~~

*ring ring (5 minutes later)
Me : what????
Him: see, you are waiting for my call...
Me : (can't help myself not to smile)
Him: (laughing like hell)
Me : i didnt... (really wanna laugh)
Him: (still laughing) ok ok... bye... this one for real... Are you sure you were not waiting for my call? Im hanging up...
Me : Yes. Im sure. Hehe... Bye!

Conversation 5
Him: Hey, where is your house again?
Me : I dunno.
Him: why you dun wanna tell me? What is so hard? Just tell me.
Me : I dunno where my house is (feeling very happy for this answer).
Him: fine. Im going there tomorrow.
Me : as if you can find it...

(the day after) --
My mom: someone was looking for DD7 house... I told him there is no DD7 here. We only have odd number which will be DD 2, 4, 6, etc.

*ring ring
Him: you lied to me.
Me : what?
Him: there is no DD7
Me : I didnt tell you that my house number is 7...
Him: so what is your house's number?
Me : I dunno...
Him: oh my God...

Apparently, my house number is 6 and I had no idea where did he get my address from... =)

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Next, I want to write this message he sent me... Which I like the most...

Him: Merry X'mas and Happy New Year 2003
Me : Merry X'mas and Happy New Year 2003
Him: Hey, where are you? What are you doin now?
Me : At my friend's house. Watching movie (a boring way to celebrate x'mas). What about you?
Him: I see. Im trying to talk to Santa Claus. To ask him for a present.
Me : What? Ok...
Him: Im asking him to make you as my girlfriend. Do you think he will give me my present?

I dun wanna continue this story because I wanna keep it nice. But for your information... Nothing had happened between me and him =)

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I cannot believe he is not here. If I pray, will he be able to listen to me? I just want to say something to him. I regret I didnt say this long time ago. Now I know what does "you will not know how precious someone is until you lost them" means...

If he is reading this right now, I wish to say:

If you are still here to ask another present from the Santa Claus again, I am sure he will give you the present...
And, Im going to ask for the same present...
And last but not least, Thank You~

What The F*CK?!

Yes, it is no longer what the H. It becomes what the F now...
So, I was doing my coding for the C++ assignment when the computer suddenly off. Yes...off, just like that. And, to be more details, all the file you put on the computer will gone. ALL files. Again... ALL files. Which included my file. MY CODING file. My f*ckin assignment. Congratz me please?

KFC Delivery

Im sure everyone has eat KFC before. Right? I mean the chicken, not the KFC restaurant. And Im sure you know what delivery is. So, Im gonna talk about KFC Delivery service.

Yesterday, is the lazy day. Why? Because yesterday known as Sunday! It's the day when [the girls] in my house will just stay at home, not going anywhere, unless there is something to do. My [sister] went back to Khuntien-Pontianak-Indonesia...I dun like dat. I wish she can stay longer. Once I left the bus station, I already knew that it's gonna be a d@mn boring day. And I was right...

I went back home and then I decided to get my shower and then open the window of the room (which is a rare thing to do). and then I read my C++ how to program. And then I fell asleep from 11am-1pm.

Miss [L] woke me up and asked me whether I would like to order anything because they were going to call the KFC for a delivery. So I said yes. Then, still feeling sleepy, I went back to sleep. When I really woke up 1 hour later, the delivery was not there yet. Then we wait and wait and wait and then I feel asleep (again). Well, Im sorry, I just couldnt help it, told you it was a boring day.

When I woke up, it is 3pm. I was hungry. Then I heard all the story about the delivery. So it is like this, [L] called to order the meal from KFC and then the [manager] picked up the phone and noted down the order, our address, and [L]'s phone number. After waiting for so long, [L] called them again and ask or the delivery, [manager] then said that they DUN KNOW WHERE FLORIDALE IS. Ok... so she told them. And they say would send it soon.

After waiting for 3 hours, Im angry. Seriously. You dun wan to make me angry. Really. Then I asked for the telephone number and called the [manager]. I was screaming like hell. (I told you. You dun wanna make me angry).

{and due to the very long conversation, I dun think Im gonna write it here}...

Then we got our food. Finally. at 4pm. Then guess what? They forgot the rice. What the H? Fine, so the [manager] said he knew he forgot the rice. So (again) he had to come to send the rice.

This time, the [delivery boy] came with the [manager] who's actually 'not bad'...if you know what I mean. His name is [Leslie] which actually sounds like a girls name instead of a guys name. He is still so young; late twenty I suppose. But of coz, I was still angry with him. I couldnt forgive him just because he is not bad.

But really... he is not bad... Hm... I think Im going to have KFC again this weekend =p