It gets really FUNNY

I was online and checking my Facebook as usual when I saw my friend, Unni, profile picture and I thought he look different now. But I kinda like his new look. Then I clicked on "See Friendship" feature on Facebook where you can see the history of you and one particular friend. And in this case, I'm talking bout me and Unni. I browse for the picture of me and Unni AND I saw the picture of us during prom, which brings me to a guy called Zarif.

Oh yea... Zarif. He used to be my idol or something. Well, he's totally noticeable. He's tall. He's gorgeous. He looks like Orlando Bloom. WHO doesn't interested? Anyway, that brought me to the fact that he was my prom date on 2007. I couldn't mention his name on this blog back then because I was afraid someone would read it and told him (if you are curious, you may look at the 2007 archive).

I was so star struck at that time. I couldn't even look at his face straight away. Ever since he asked me to prom, we got closer. The were rumors about us around Swinburne. After the prom, you could catch us having lunch together and all that. I like the fact that he looked for me (OMG I just realized some things... I will write about this later). I was soooooo star struck. HAHAHAHA. I couldn't stop laughing at myself now.

About the thing that hit me suddenly;
1. Zarif's favorite number is SIX. He even got it tattooed on his ankle. He made it when he was with me.
2. I said... I like the fact that he looked for me. I said that about Ian too. Guess I do like it when someone is looking for me. Make me feel special and wanted :)

This memory does sounds really funny now. Well, good night xx

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Ian Nashville.
I know I should wish you something but I just couldn't do it at the moment. But I have a curse instead. The best curse I could give is for you to REMEMBER ME everyday, every hour, every minute, every second for the rest of YOUR LIFE.

That way, you'll remember every little thing bout me and it will make you feel guilty. That's good enough. Have a good life.

My Dream Crib

I've always wanted my own place. My own studio apartment to be exact. I wanna have a place of my own in which I could do whatever I want. Go out and come back no matter what the time is, put music as loud as I wish, turn on the air-conditioner anytime I feel like, go around the apartment naked... Well, things like that.

Another reason why I wanna have a place for myself is because I can decorate it as I wish. I'd love to have something red in my apartment. A closet would be nice to.

Problem is... It's so damn expensive! I have no idea that it would be so expensive... for such a small place. It cost IDR 1.200.000.000 for a 2 bedrooms apartment. Really? I mean... Really? Guess I need to work my ass off first.

Wants

So I just reached home from a day out with my ex-colleague. I kinda like them so I keep in touch with them. When I told Rizky bout my interview tomorrow, he was like "Don't go". I cancelled the interview for tomorrow. I just found out that the company that offered me job has the same concept with the company I left. Well, it's a big NO-NO.

Anyway, so I was browsing some pictures of my friend on Facebook and somehow her life make me really jealous. And when I start to think further, I have loads of "wants" and somehow it's just over-rated. So since I couldn't sleep just yet, I wanna list down all those things

1. Great Skin Complexion
Some girls are really lucky because they don't need any treatment at all yet their face will still be crystal clear. Some are struggling to keep their face clean from zits or anything at all. And unfortunately I'm one of those who are struggling to keep the face clean from zits. Before I worked at my previously left job, I had this almost clean face but then came that job and my sensitive face just couldn't handle it. So now I have... well, just say "horrible" looking face. I really need to clean it up.

2. Slimmer
Seriously. I've been dieting my whole life until 2009. I was at my slimmest point by then and I like it. I've gained 7kgs for the last 1 year. Damn it! I have to lose weight not only because I wanna look hot, but for my health as well. My doctor has been telling me bout this and still... here I am... being fat. She's gonna ignore me sooner or later.

3. Rich
Owh yes I am money oriented. I admit that. I'm just too expensive (yea, I admit that too). I just need loads of money to support my lifestyle. From head to toe. From the moment I wake up 'till the moment I'm going to bed. I'm just too expensive. SO I need money. Loads of money. When I have loads of money I can have number 4.

4. Credit Cards
Why? Hmmm... I kinda like the idea of credit card. Some might think that you owe someone when you use credit card. Well, from my point of view it's different. You get loads of discount when you use certain credit card on certain promotions so I get to save more with credit card. Why not, right? In order to have credit cards... again I need loads of money. And in order to have loads of money, I need number 5.

5. Well-paid Job
Which has to be the job that I love as well. When I love what I do, I could face whatever is gonna happen... And now, I do hope I could get the job that I love.

Good Night xx

Interview

I have an interview coming up on Monday. I got a phone call when I least expect it. I was watching tv when I got a phone call from an unknown number. Normally I won't pick it up because I screen the incoming calls. But I was feeling alright then I picked it up. To be honest? I totally forgot that I put my application for that company. I don't even remember what position was it.

Anyway, the interview is on Monday, 11am. I will just take this as interview practice. Coz to be honest, I'm expecting another job. I would still consider about this one though. Since this is a lifestyle promotion division, I think I should wear something attractive; and I believe, in person, I am attractive enough.

You know how you feel when a guy compliment you? Add that feeling a lil bit more and it would be how I felt when my grandma compliment me. My style is something else. Colors, shorts, wavy hair, cleavage, cleavage, and another cleavage (well, I'm sorry, that's one of my best features); or as my friends like to put it, bitchy. So my grandma doesn't really fancy my daily style. So I was sitting downstairs with her and watch this tv show, and suddenly she went "Your hair is something. Nice wavy hair, you don't even need to perm it or something. It's nice to see that your hair is naturally that way" Hmmmm? Those words coming from my grandma? Wow ;)

There is something I should be working on as well. My anger management is unbelievable. I fail successfully. Damn. I am trying to remember how I did it last time. I was sooooo patient. Trying to believe that it was not because Ian was with me but because I could.

Alright, gotta shower and think about what I should wear for interview on Monday.

Good night xx

Accepting

Honestly, I never really get over Ian in the past one year (plus). I always tell myself that I am strong, fabulous, nice, one hell of a woman whom guy will fall head over heels with. But I just can't seem to get over him.

Well you know, clearly that woman is the love of his life. I understand that I am nothing to compare to her (in his eyes). It's just that... It's not easy to get over him. It's Ian we're talking about. There's no need to explain how much I loved him :)

And lately I feel it's kinda tiring to keep fighting this feeling. There is a saying (I forgot how exactly it says) which says that there is no use to convince you are something when your heart say otherwise. So I've decided to just let the feeling exist and still be strong, fabulous, nice, one hell of a woman whom guy will fall head over heels with ;)

Good night xx

Good To Be Back

It has been a while since the last time I write. Few things changed. I quit my job (it's gonna be really long that I need a whole new post just to write bout it), my face look like shit from the 3 months I had in that company, and my sister is pregnant :) (a glimpse of good news).

Most people would think that I'm not serious with DJ-ing but I really do and in fact I have list of the DJs who I love the most :

1. AFROJACK

2. CHUCKIE

3. LAIDBACK LUKE

4. ERICK MORILLO

5. SIDNEY SAMSON

And guess what... DJ who is currently sitting number 1 on the list, (check again) was in Jakarta last week. Did I go? HELLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOO????!?!?!?!? HELL YEAH I WAS THERE! I could get orgasm just by listening to his music and how can I not go when he's just few minutes drive away from me? He was a X2 club - Plaza Senayan Jakarta. One of the biggest clubs in Jakarta. My friends were busy but it didn't stop me. I went there by myself. I couldn't afford losing the chance of getting drawn in his music.

However... I met my friend in the club. Well, who knows right? We were looking great ;)

 Marcia, Michi, Karin, Me - pic courtesy of www.indonesiaclubbing.com

The best part of the night? I get to take pic with him! To my surprise, he's really tall. And (gotta admit this) really cute too. So it was Marcia's idea to caught him on his way out from the stage. Damn we got him! Big thanks to Marcia. I hugged him too. It was the best night ever ;)

Though I look like shit there, I still love this picture. Would always remind me of Nick (his real name). I went home at 5 in the morning, feeling satisfied.

So, Afrojack [checked], Laidback Luke [checked]. Unfortunately I didn't go to Chuckie's performance at Club Dragonfly the day after Afrojack but seriously I don't want to talk bout that. Let's just be happy with Afrojack :D