Few weeks ago (Im not sure when is the exact date), I went to the Coffee Bean with Miss Sach and Miss Summer. So there we are. Having this ladies-talk (not girls-talk since we are no longer small little girl). And suddenly summer popped a simple question to me:
Summer: Hey, among all the girls who do you think is the closest with you?
Me: (thinking)
Summer: ...
Sach: ...
Summer: yes?
Me: ... (confuse)
Sach: Me? (pointing herself)
Me: yeah... true... it's Sach... I dun think there is any of the girls that Im close with...
Summer: huh? (confuse)
Sach: yeah...
Me: yeah... I think I can answer that question easily if you ask me 1 year ago. It would be Miss R... Not anymore now...
That "simple" question then become "not-so-simple" question for me after all...
Something wrong with me? Something wrong with the world? The world is turning their back on me, or Im turning my back on the world? It is just a simple question...isnt it?
Thursday, September 6, 2007
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Mr. Vincensius Agustian Chandra
Who is he? He is Vin-Vin. Yup. That is Vin-Vin' full name. Yes. Im referring to my 'best-friend', Vin-Vin.
He is my best buddy. I can talk loads of things to him. I like to talk to him. Im happy having him as my friend. He always gives me suggestion when I got a problem (instead of making me even more confuse, like what other people do). In short, I like him.
But, he wont talk to me now. What is his problem? All of a sudden he dun wanna talk to me anymore. What the H? He makes me confuse. Im blank. Have no idea. Why is he like that to me? If there's anything wrong, can't he just tell me? Scream at me or whatsoever. He cannot just keep silent like that! That frustrates me!
We had this fight last time. Well, not a fight. It was da same thing. He wont talk to me. I was confused (as I am now). I ask my friends, Mr. Franc. He wont say anything about that. I was sure that he knew something. Then finally he told me that Vin2 was irritated by the gossip between me and him. The gossip was like a disaster. The gossips says: "VinVin and Har will get married after school"...WHAT THE HELL? Who? Who? Me? Him? We? Both of us? Are you sure? Me and him? Him and me? Vincensius Agustian Chandra and Haryati Sugianto? That is a big no no!!! Who want to marry their own brother? Well, I know some people do, but majority no. Rite? Cmon. Can't I have a best-friend who is apparently a guy? So I can only have female friend? Think! Use your brain! Oh my~~ Why dun they say that Im gonna marry Franc as well (since he is also one of my best buddy)? Those people need help.
I dunno who to blame. Feel like wanna kill those people who spread stupid news. Or I wanna angry with VinVin for not telling me anything and just ignore me instead.
That was settled. Done. But now, he's acting like that again. What is wrong? Can someone please tell me?
Again, I ask Franc but he know nothing about that problem this time. So I ask his help to ask VinVin. He did. And the result?
Franc : he wont tell. weird guy...
Me : what? why? wat did u say to him?
Franc : i said "why do u ignore her. wat is wrong?". Then he said there's nothing wrong.
Me : he didnt say anything else? But he did agreed that he ignore me?
Franc : I dunno. Didnt ask further...
WTH?
I have tried to call him like, what, 100 times? He didnt answer my call.
I wish him happy birthday on 17 August. He didnt even say thank you to me. I remembered his bday! He didnt wish me happy bday on my bday this year. Im broken-hearted you know...
I just hope he will talk to me again.
ps: will post my picture and him tomorrow...
He is my best buddy. I can talk loads of things to him. I like to talk to him. Im happy having him as my friend. He always gives me suggestion when I got a problem (instead of making me even more confuse, like what other people do). In short, I like him.
But, he wont talk to me now. What is his problem? All of a sudden he dun wanna talk to me anymore. What the H? He makes me confuse. Im blank. Have no idea. Why is he like that to me? If there's anything wrong, can't he just tell me? Scream at me or whatsoever. He cannot just keep silent like that! That frustrates me!
We had this fight last time. Well, not a fight. It was da same thing. He wont talk to me. I was confused (as I am now). I ask my friends, Mr. Franc. He wont say anything about that. I was sure that he knew something. Then finally he told me that Vin2 was irritated by the gossip between me and him. The gossip was like a disaster. The gossips says: "VinVin and Har will get married after school"...WHAT THE HELL? Who? Who? Me? Him? We? Both of us? Are you sure? Me and him? Him and me? Vincensius Agustian Chandra and Haryati Sugianto? That is a big no no!!! Who want to marry their own brother? Well, I know some people do, but majority no. Rite? Cmon. Can't I have a best-friend who is apparently a guy? So I can only have female friend? Think! Use your brain! Oh my~~ Why dun they say that Im gonna marry Franc as well (since he is also one of my best buddy)? Those people need help.
I dunno who to blame. Feel like wanna kill those people who spread stupid news. Or I wanna angry with VinVin for not telling me anything and just ignore me instead.
That was settled. Done. But now, he's acting like that again. What is wrong? Can someone please tell me?
Again, I ask Franc but he know nothing about that problem this time. So I ask his help to ask VinVin. He did. And the result?
Franc : he wont tell. weird guy...
Me : what? why? wat did u say to him?
Franc : i said "why do u ignore her. wat is wrong?". Then he said there's nothing wrong.
Me : he didnt say anything else? But he did agreed that he ignore me?
Franc : I dunno. Didnt ask further...
WTH?
I have tried to call him like, what, 100 times? He didnt answer my call.
I wish him happy birthday on 17 August. He didnt even say thank you to me. I remembered his bday! He didnt wish me happy bday on my bday this year. Im broken-hearted you know...
I just hope he will talk to me again.
ps: will post my picture and him tomorrow...
Annoying singer
Do you like to listen to music? So do I. But when a singer become annoying? Oh no~~ It's like a disaster. My fren, who likes to sing, become one of those annoying singer. I can understand she like to sing and that's her hobby. But, Im so sori, I dun like her voice and they way she sings it. I can give thousand of reason why I dun like it when she sing:
She doesnt see the condition around her when she sing.
She doesnt know that she cannot sing it.
She doesnt know the lyric but force to sing it.
She doesnt know that sometimes people would like to listen to the music without any interrupting sound around...
She just...doesnt get it...
Oh my~
Nevermind. I just post this to... to calm myself down.
SHE!!
alright~~
I stop...
Cya
updated [20 September 2007]:
If you happen to read this, and u knw dat Im talking about u. Im so sori. Dun stop the signing, I was jus not in da mood. But yea, sometimes you are annoying and I did tell u... And if you sing it seriously (I mean really sing it) I will be very happy to listen =p
She doesnt see the condition around her when she sing.
She doesnt know that she cannot sing it.
She doesnt know the lyric but force to sing it.
She doesnt know that sometimes people would like to listen to the music without any interrupting sound around...
She just...doesnt get it...
Oh my~
Nevermind. I just post this to... to calm myself down.
SHE!!
alright~~
I stop...
Cya
updated [20 September 2007]:
If you happen to read this, and u knw dat Im talking about u. Im so sori. Dun stop the signing, I was jus not in da mood. But yea, sometimes you are annoying and I did tell u... And if you sing it seriously (I mean really sing it) I will be very happy to listen =p
My Friends
I think it is going to be very difficult to talk about people around me if I dun introduce them 1st. So here I am. Giving their profile. However, I wont state their real name here.
Miss Sach
Here goes the very beautiful friend of mine. She has this long n nice hair, fair skin, and so much more. (Hopefully she will never read this or else she will do something that you dun wanna know). She stays at the same condominium as mine but in the different block. She can cook (and we always ask her to cook for us) =p
Miss Summer
She is Miss Sach' house mate. She is funny. How to explain this? Kinda innocent. And seems like she believe everything. But I like her sense of fashion. She is cool. And her dream is to get a tan like... like... well... loads of example. ok? Hehe... All da best for her.
The Girls (so, everytime I mention "The Girls", it refer to these 4 girls -- who stay wif me)
Miss R
She was my best-friend. Why do I use the word 'was'? I will explain it in the next post. She has this problem wif her hair. She loves her hair so much.
Miss E
She is one of the girls as well. She is a romantic girl. She like something cute, nice, romantic, touching... well, those kind of things.
Miss L
This one is mentally retarded. Well, not that bad. But we always say that she is mentally retarded. Hehe. Kiddin, of coz. She is the one who always clean the house and she is da one who is very patience and say yes to almost everything.
Miss S
She is... dangdut lover, so I can say. She is funny and also very patience. She likes cow and white color. Perhaps because cow is white and black? Well, God knows.
Now I will introduce the guys:
Mr. U
He is Miss S' bf. Now, u got dat. Hehe. He afraid of dogs. He afraid...of dogs. Really. So dun ever bring any puppy for him. Hehe. His hobby is farting. Yes, Im serious. Farting.
Mr. N
He was... He is our friend who become our daddy. Altho we're not that close n'more. Who know why? He knows. His hobby (I hope by the time I type this his hobby is still da same) is photography and he is gud at it.
I will update this post if there's anything I would like to introduce =)
Miss Sach
Here goes the very beautiful friend of mine. She has this long n nice hair, fair skin, and so much more. (Hopefully she will never read this or else she will do something that you dun wanna know). She stays at the same condominium as mine but in the different block. She can cook (and we always ask her to cook for us) =p
Miss Summer
She is Miss Sach' house mate. She is funny. How to explain this? Kinda innocent. And seems like she believe everything. But I like her sense of fashion. She is cool. And her dream is to get a tan like... like... well... loads of example. ok? Hehe... All da best for her.
The Girls (so, everytime I mention "The Girls", it refer to these 4 girls -- who stay wif me)
Miss R
She was my best-friend. Why do I use the word 'was'? I will explain it in the next post. She has this problem wif her hair. She loves her hair so much.
Miss E
She is one of the girls as well. She is a romantic girl. She like something cute, nice, romantic, touching... well, those kind of things.
Miss L
This one is mentally retarded. Well, not that bad. But we always say that she is mentally retarded. Hehe. Kiddin, of coz. She is the one who always clean the house and she is da one who is very patience and say yes to almost everything.
Miss S
She is... dangdut lover, so I can say. She is funny and also very patience. She likes cow and white color. Perhaps because cow is white and black? Well, God knows.
Now I will introduce the guys:
Mr. U
He is Miss S' bf. Now, u got dat. Hehe. He afraid of dogs. He afraid...of dogs. Really. So dun ever bring any puppy for him. Hehe. His hobby is farting. Yes, Im serious. Farting.
Mr. N
He was... He is our friend who become our daddy. Altho we're not that close n'more. Who know why? He knows. His hobby (I hope by the time I type this his hobby is still da same) is photography and he is gud at it.
I will update this post if there's anything I would like to introduce =)
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Money
Dont money always bring "problem" along with them? They do sometimes bring happiness. But mostly they come with problem. Why do I say so? Because that is what happened to me now. And this post is not a funny post. It's serious post. If you dont like to read something serious, please just skip this.
Let me tell you what. First of all, to make the story easier, you need to know that my uncle (my mother's bro) is in the hospital. He is suffering from diabetes, kidney problem, his heart pump slowly, and many more. In short, he is having this compound fracture thing. Surely not a good news for me. And surely not a good news for my mom. Which of coz, not a good news for my dad.
Truly speaking, without exaggerate it, my dad is a very generous person. My mom's family is not a rich family (Im not saying that my dad is rich). My mom has an older bro, 2 younger sis, and 1 younger bro. One of my mom's sister has passed away because of womb cancer. I love her so much. I feel sorry for my mom. The other sis of my mom is a very tough and shy lady, she never ask any help from my mom. Perhaps because she thinks it wont be nice asking money from my mom or perhaps because she is shy, who knows.
The younger bro of my mom has 3 children who bring loads of problem for my family (my dad specifically). He is unemployed. My father gave him job, which he never do it correctly. His eldest son, ask money to get married (he never talk straight to my dad's face-he talk through my mom). His 2nd son, always ask for money for any kind of reason (he never talk straight to my dad as well). His youngest child, his daughter, sometimes she asks for money. Sometimes she doesnt...at least not always...
And now, the older bro of my mom is sick. Guess who pays for the hospital? Yes, you guessed it right. MY DAD. Can you feel what my mom feel? Do you understand how doubtful she is when she ask for the money?
What frustrates me more is that I cannot be a good daughter myself. I even failed one of my subjects last time. Why cannot I just study well? Why am I so lazy? I know it is because of my commitment is not strong enough. I regret every time that I spent here (including blogging). But I need to write this. I need to talk. I need to tell someone. Although blog cannot speak back to me. But I need to let it out from me. So here I am...so called "talking" to my blog...
I dun post funny things. I post darkness and guess what? I dun care.
Let me tell you what. First of all, to make the story easier, you need to know that my uncle (my mother's bro) is in the hospital. He is suffering from diabetes, kidney problem, his heart pump slowly, and many more. In short, he is having this compound fracture thing. Surely not a good news for me. And surely not a good news for my mom. Which of coz, not a good news for my dad.
Truly speaking, without exaggerate it, my dad is a very generous person. My mom's family is not a rich family (Im not saying that my dad is rich). My mom has an older bro, 2 younger sis, and 1 younger bro. One of my mom's sister has passed away because of womb cancer. I love her so much. I feel sorry for my mom. The other sis of my mom is a very tough and shy lady, she never ask any help from my mom. Perhaps because she thinks it wont be nice asking money from my mom or perhaps because she is shy, who knows.
The younger bro of my mom has 3 children who bring loads of problem for my family (my dad specifically). He is unemployed. My father gave him job, which he never do it correctly. His eldest son, ask money to get married (he never talk straight to my dad's face-he talk through my mom). His 2nd son, always ask for money for any kind of reason (he never talk straight to my dad as well). His youngest child, his daughter, sometimes she asks for money. Sometimes she doesnt...at least not always...
And now, the older bro of my mom is sick. Guess who pays for the hospital? Yes, you guessed it right. MY DAD. Can you feel what my mom feel? Do you understand how doubtful she is when she ask for the money?
What frustrates me more is that I cannot be a good daughter myself. I even failed one of my subjects last time. Why cannot I just study well? Why am I so lazy? I know it is because of my commitment is not strong enough. I regret every time that I spent here (including blogging). But I need to write this. I need to talk. I need to tell someone. Although blog cannot speak back to me. But I need to let it out from me. So here I am...so called "talking" to my blog...
I dun post funny things. I post darkness and guess what? I dun care.
Monday, August 20, 2007
Professional...
What the hell? (Im kinda into that word lately)...
Final project is killing me and what worse, this is just the beginning. Do I really have to work like this after I graduated? Oh my... wth...
But truly speaking, Im kinda interested in doing this project. It's like, very professional and then all of the sudden I feel like Im already in this working world with those professional looks and professional attitude and professional things to do (ok, u can laugh).
I mean... look at me... I look... fat...(NO! It's not it!!)...I look stress..(NO! That is not what I mean, but yeah, I do look stressed)... I look like someone who try to be professional with 10% success. Oh, wth... Nevermind...
I need to continue with my project plan. Cya =_=|||
Final project is killing me and what worse, this is just the beginning. Do I really have to work like this after I graduated? Oh my... wth...
But truly speaking, Im kinda interested in doing this project. It's like, very professional and then all of the sudden I feel like Im already in this working world with those professional looks and professional attitude and professional things to do (ok, u can laugh).
I mean... look at me... I look... fat...(NO! It's not it!!)...I look stress..(NO! That is not what I mean, but yeah, I do look stressed)... I look like someone who try to be professional with 10% success. Oh, wth... Nevermind...
I need to continue with my project plan. Cya =_=|||
Monday, July 9, 2007
Holiday... Mayb...
Well, here I go again everyone.
Im having my holiday, chillin at hometown, and having fun wif my girl frens.
And, what else? Im goin to Bali on the 13 July wif my sister. Well, I may look like somekind of paranoid or watever, but since I heard the news about one of the Indonesian plane crash into pieces... Im not really feel safe on my flight later. Oh my God. Please... Bless me...
Im excited about this holiday bcoz Im gonna do loads of fun things... Like... (I didnt tell my parent about this one) Bungee Jumping. And, Bali... Im gonna but loads of things. Oh my God. Im like.. so excited. I hope I wont be a chicken when Im about to jump and then change my mind and then I go back to Jakarta. It's pathetic.
And of course... Im not really in da mood to have fun. Why? It's becoz on the 23 July, da ($$">*%^&#@!)&%^&%&(($$#@ result is out....and I dun have a gud feeling about this one... Please... Wish me luckkkk =(
Im having my holiday, chillin at hometown, and having fun wif my girl frens.
And, what else? Im goin to Bali on the 13 July wif my sister. Well, I may look like somekind of paranoid or watever, but since I heard the news about one of the Indonesian plane crash into pieces... Im not really feel safe on my flight later. Oh my God. Please... Bless me...
Im excited about this holiday bcoz Im gonna do loads of fun things... Like... (I didnt tell my parent about this one) Bungee Jumping. And, Bali... Im gonna but loads of things. Oh my God. Im like.. so excited. I hope I wont be a chicken when Im about to jump and then change my mind and then I go back to Jakarta. It's pathetic.
And of course... Im not really in da mood to have fun. Why? It's becoz on the 23 July, da ($$">*%^&#@!)&%^&%&(($$#@ result is out....and I dun have a gud feeling about this one... Please... Wish me luckkkk =(
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