Dear all...

As all of you know, a blog is an online diary. This is my blog. Which means this is my diary.
If you know me in the real world, please do me a favor... Whatever you read here, please forget it in the real world. I am being frank in this blog. If I hate you, I will write it here. If I love you, I will write it here as well.

If there is anything I would like to clear with people that I have a problem with...I will talk to you personally. In front of you. Straight to you...If I think that is necessary... or else I will just keep those feeling to myself... OK?

So, please, whatever you read here, pretend nothing happened when you meet me. OK? I will appreciate it.

Except for my friend Miss V, Miss Yee-Chan, Miss Summer, Miss Sach... I will tell you the story myself... Rite? Hehe...

CRUSH

Having a new crush is kinda fun for me. For quite a long time, Im kinda "off" with that area. I had this crush on a guy who is a "good-boy" type. His name is BJL (I better dun reveal his real name here--it might be a problem for me someday).

One day he came to school with his girlfriend. Ow~~ Yes of coz Im broken hearted. I never expect he will love me or something, but Im absolutely didnt expect he is in a relationship... Compared to his girlfriend, I might look like a female king kong. She is soooo small...petite... anything... Well, it is understood though... Slim girls are more preferable... (But I think, a girl should not be toooo thin since it does not feel nice to hug a thin girl).

So I decided to forget him. And now, when I look at him, he lost his "glow" he used to have... *click* just like that. Gone. Now I know what "Love is Blind" means.

Now, in this new semester, I dun think I feel anything with anyone. But I guess Im wrong... I know this one guy who looks so much like Orlando Bloom. For sure I cannot mention his name here. He is a very gentleman type of guy but he got this bad-boy face. That will be perfect. I like this type of guy. I like bad-boy. That is for sure.

Now, school seems to be more interesting and Gamelan seems to be our daily restaurant again... Well, will update about this tomorrow. =p
Going to eat. Hope I can meet him there. Cya ~~~

Perfection, Comparison and Competition

What can I say about competition? What can I say about perfection? What can I say about comparison? All of them working together...Everyone compete to be perfect. Nevertheless...Comparison become one of the reason to get perfection. Im sorry if Im wrong. But that is exactly what I thought... No one want to be a loser...

However, some people might think the other "simple" yet "d@mned" way to win. Some people even try to "hit their enemy down" (if you know what I mean). These people are sick. Truly speaking, half side of me wants to do win, another half of me just want to be what I am now (with reasonable improvement).

Being compared is just... Just... It makes you feel like sh*t. One should improve by being compared. That is what people thought that person will be. No, I dun think so. That will juts hurt their feeling...

Me, myself, is trying to go for perfection:
*be a very smart student who always get D n HD... (that will be B n A).
*to have a body like Fergie...
*to be unbeatable...

But when I think positively:
*I can DANCE. Not everyone can dance.
*I have a very good communication skill. Im quite proud of this one.
*I have a happy family... and I love them...

So I think, after all, although we being compared with other b*tch, we still can survive.. PERFECTION does not exist. There is only HAPPY life...

This leadership annoyes me...

So here I am. The new leader of my final project. Today I had my first meeting. I do not think it was good. I am lost with what Im doing, what the group is doing. I regret it. I know it is my mistake AND Im going to FIX it.

I talked with my brother about this. And here is our conversation:
[17:33] Harsono: wek
[17:33] Harsono: wek
[17:33] Harsono: wek
[17:33] Harsono: fast huh?
[17:33] HaR... My name is Haryati: that is fast!!
[17:33] HaR... My name is Haryati: haha
[17:33] Harsono: hahahaha
[17:34] Harsono: Huahahahaha
[17:34] Harsono: holiday is coming
[17:34] Harsono: in da holiday spirit
[17:34] HaR... My name is Haryati: hahaa
[17:34] HaR... My name is Haryati: holiday spirit
[17:34] Harsono: of coz
[17:34] HaR... My name is Haryati: i still have to do my final project
[17:34] HaR... My name is Haryati: haha
[17:34] Harsono: it's ok
[17:34] Harsono: accept it as a practice before going to work
[17:34] HaR... My name is Haryati: ya...true
[17:34] Harsono: as an experience
[17:34] HaR... My name is Haryati: haha
[17:35] HaR... My name is Haryati: btw, im da new leader now...
[17:35] HaR... My name is Haryati: haha
[17:35] Harsono: why?
[17:35] HaR... My name is Haryati: i dunno
[17:35] HaR... My name is Haryati: da supervisor changed dat...
[17:35] HaR... My name is Haryati: and da ex-leader want it to be like dat
[17:35] HaR... My name is Haryati: she wanted to be changed
[17:35] Harsono: she couldnt make it?
[17:35] HaR... My name is Haryati: im not sure
[17:35] Harsono: it's good then
[17:36] HaR... My name is Haryati: all I know, our supervisor change the structure
[17:36] Harsono: so that you have more job to do
[17:36] Harsono: hahahaha
[17:36] HaR... My name is Haryati: dats bad...
[17:36] HaR... My name is Haryati: but it really getting more and more things to do
[17:36] Harsono: not really
[17:36] HaR... My name is Haryati: i have to do a 3 days report
[17:36] Harsono: hahahaha
[17:36] Harsono: hahahaha
[17:36] Harsono: hahahaha
[17:36] HaR... My name is Haryati: so I have to submit a report every 3 days
[17:37] Harsono: being a leader is better
[17:37] Harsono: you will get more experience
[17:38] HaR... My name is Haryati: hm...
[17:38] HaR... My name is Haryati: have to be a good leader
[17:38] Harsono: being a leader is hard
[17:38] Harsono: Remember! Leader is born not made
[17:38] Harsono: I dun believer that leader can me made
[17:39] Harsono: Born...
[17:39] Harsono: Born....
[17:39] Harsono: that's why not everyone can become a leader
[17:39] HaR... My name is Haryati: hey bro, do you think I can be a leader?
[17:39] Harsono: what do you think?
[17:40] HaR... My name is Haryati: yes I can
[17:40] Harsono: great
[17:40] Harsono: why?
[17:41] HaR... My name is Haryati: hm...because im strict?
[17:41] Harsono: it is inherited
[17:41] HaR... My name is Haryati: inherited (im thinking of inheritance as in programming inheritance)
[17:41] Harsono: Papa has his own business
[17:41] Harsono: I have my own business
[17:41] Harsono: you sister often become a project supervisor
[17:41] Harsono: u see...
[17:42] HaR... My name is Haryati: ic ic
[17:42] Harsono: Inherited.....means born
[17:43] Harsono: a leader has to has these:
[17:43] Harsono: 1. Responsibility
[17:43] Harsono: 2. Supervise
[17:43] Harsono: 3. Analyze
[17:43] Harsono: 4. Solution
[17:43] Harsono: 5.Control
[17:44] Harsono: Ok?
[17:45] HaR... My name is Haryati: ok
[17:45] HaR... My name is Haryati: OK

There are loads more that we talked about... These conversation make me think more...
I have to be a good leader... I hope Im not sound to ambitious here... I just want to what they expect me to be...

The New Leader

Mr. Patrick, our supervisor of the final project, talked to me this morning. He assign me as the new leader...

Can I do the job of a team leader?

Miss V

My friend... Miss V...
I like her so much... Dun think there is anything to complainabout her. Yes, I can complain but not because she did something wrong. Mostly because she did something that will hurt herself. Like, being to patience with her friends (who mostly become friend with her because they can "use" her).

She is reading my blog lately and Im happy that she wants to read my blog. And then she left loads of comments for me. She has been my best friend since 7 years ago. A very long time... We did quarrel sometimes, back in the old days.

What I like about her? I dunno... But I think we "click". That is it. We "click". She likes to read comic, I do. She likes to watch movies, I do. She likes gossiping, I do. She likes to go out and window shopping, I do. She is sometimes idiot, Im not. Haha...

(NB: Miss V, if you are reading this right now... Please dun angry. Im juts kidding =p)

The point is, I like her. She can stand to be my friend by understanding my personality. She accompany me to cry (through the phone or by giving a shoulder to cry on). She accompany me to watch movies. She updates me on the latest news. She buy the magazines while Im not at my hometown. She is the best.

Thank you for everything =)

When the lights went out -- part 2

Let me make this clear. This is the second time it happen to me...

I was doing my job as a Quality Assurance Manager (Im quite proud with my position) to edit the document. I was typing this.. email for the client as well. That is when the light went out... Guess what? Everything is on the desktop. And guess what is more interesting? Swinburne has this software which will wipe off everything on the desktop when a computer is turned-off... Let me remind you where did I put my file. They are on the desktop. And let me remind you again. They will be wiped-off when we turn off the computer. What happen to the computer when the light went out? ... You know the answer...

Sigh~~~