For The Man I Love The Most

See You vs Bye

See You...
Bye!

Those two words are normally use when we are parting from the person we're talking to. Some may not care about which phrase that they use but for me. It means alot.

I don't like the sound of "Bye" because it seems like we're never gonna meet again. I prefer to say "see you" as that indicates that there might be a chance someday, somehow... me and that person will meet again.

I used to say that when I was with Ian. I asked him not to use the word "Bye" to me because I don't want to hear him sounded like he would leave me (which he actually did despite of the phrase). Until the case when he went back to Tia and I asked him if it's still a "see you" or a "bye" and he said "see you" which appears to be bullshit.

Well basically... Like I said in my previous post, Ian change me. Some are bad. Some are good. I don't know which category this one falls into but I always say "bye" now. The reason behind it? I just want to be real. No stupid promises. Just a firm farewell. IF I see that person again, well... hello! If I don't, at least I said it clear and firm. BYE.

I know it may sound weird or stupid or non sense or whatever you wanna call it. It's just how I look at it. And somehow the guy that I'm seeing... He always say "talk to you soon" but I always reply with "bye". I notice this fact long ago but never manage to change my habit. I prefer to be me afterall. I'll still say "bye". But I really hope I'll see him again. Right now, at this very moment... I really wish I have someone. Someone legal to be with me. Someone who want to be with me. Someone who will always say "talk to you soon" instead of "bye".

Anyway... Merry Christmas. It's 25 December :)

Xmas Eve

I remember when I was a kid back in Pontianak, I am one of the xmas and new year fans. The reason is not because I'll get present. No. I'm not christian so trust me, no present under the tree or something similar.

I simply like xmas and new year is because longer holiday period and also because the TV channels are showing xmas movies. Family movies. They play "Home Alone" and "Air Bud" over and over again. Every single year. But I never seem to get bored of it.

That made me realize how much I miss home. How much I miss my parents. How much I miss my childhood where I was innocent and happy. Now that I grew up. I have more thoughts. I have more drama of my own that I don't have time to watch any other drama at all. I am too busy with my own drama.

And here I am. Monday, 24 December 2012. Xmas eve. 43 minutes to Christmas and I am having mixed feelings. And yes, it's about a guy. It's too complicated and I am in no mood to explain it now but... I really hope everything will be okay with us. And I TRULY hope that I can stop myself from waiting bad things to happen.

So... Merry Christmas, Happy New Year and Happy Holiday

What If

It is undeniable that changes happen everyday in our life for as long as we're still breathing.

The most significant thing which, I think, affects me the most is the love department. Ian was something. Something I can't seem to get over with, something I can't seem to forget, something that change me to who I am today.

Life after Ian was... rebellious, if I can put it that way. Love was not real anymore. Personally, I just want to have fun with whoever I feel like and feel totally nothing. I thought I lost my feeling. And maybe I still am.

BUT... Look at me now. I am seeing someone... Correction. I belong to someone. He own me. I gave him the ownership. Honestly I am  scared. I have loads of what ifs in my head.
- What if he's not real?
- What if he cheated?
- What if he lie?
- What if he get bored with me one day and just leave?
- What if we quarrel like no tomorrow?
- What if we never proceed anywhere and just be two singles living together?
- What if this is all just a fun game?
- What if this is just another failure?
- What if I am just... this?

.........

But I'm happy. I don't know if this is serious. I don't know if this is gonna last or not. I don't know if he's for real or not. But I know I am happy. Maybe. Maybe I am happy.

We'll see...

The Wheel Of Life

I believe the wheel of life does apply. They say sometimes you're on the top, sometimes you're at the bottom. I interprete it as "when you feel really happy, you're on the top, but careful, because soon you'll hit the bottom (feel sad that is)". I'm not much of a optimist, I must say.

I was really happy yesterday because One was... Okay. That's not how to tell a story, right. So I had an event yesterday. The reception of my mobile phone was bad, probably caused by the weather and also because of the crowd or the location of the venue itself. Whatever it was, One couldn't contact me. I couldn't reply to any of his text. One claimed to feel uneasy whenever he does not hear from me, does not know what I am doing, is not able to contact me, or anything similar with that. He called several times but I failed to speak to him because I was doing something else. We did talk for a minute or two though.

When I was on my way back, he was about to sleep and he did. I was not expecting anything but he sort of had difficulties to sleep because he had not been able to see me for the whole day. Once I got home, he called. Then he went to sleep. I was glad because I did not expect he really did WANT to see me.

Then came this morning...
I check on his instagram post. Weird pictures, as usual. With his quirky touch. And suddenly, there it was... A picture of One and his particular 'another one'. They look really good in the picture. Then it hit me hard in the heart. What was I thinking? What am I doing? Who do I think I am?

One said he loves me. I couldn't say a word back to him. Now I think I know why.
The similarity between One and Ian is too much.
1. Me and One has no status whatsoever which put me into the place where I have no rights to be mad at him for whatsoever reason because I am no one.
2. I start to put my trust in him where I have no idea what he's doing when he's not within sight (which again bring me back to number 1 where I am not in the position to ask/demand his whereabouts).
3. Ian keep contact with his so-called ex girlfriend who appears to be not-his-ex-but-still-his-gf girlfriend. So is One
4. Ian told me how unhappy he was with his (again) so-called ex girlfriend but apparently he was really happy. Those "unhappy" was only when he was with me. In front of me. All lie. What about One? He told me how unhappy he is with his another-one but really... that picture... shows... things. What if he's actually happy. What if his feeling towards me was all pheromone-effect. And he just want to keep us both... Like what Ian did.

Is number 1 right? Maybe. But when he said he loves me, that changes the way I act. I know rule number 1 still applies but I feel it and I can't help it.

I can't say I love him because I don't want to fall for someone I cannot own. Someone who will disappear without any notice. Someone who one day realize that all he wanted from me was sex and end everything. Someone who one day will leave me for his another-one. What am I for?

I have endless questions in my mind...

One thing I know for sure. I am not ready to hit the bottom.

Defense Mechanism

When the world breaks down. I have this defense mechanism to act strong.

Loads of things going on in my mind at the moment...
1. The possibility of me with another human being
2. The possibility of me addicted to one
3. The fact that one is not alone
4. REALITY

One told me that he will arrive earlier which made me really happy because that means alot. Especially when I'm ADDICTED like hell. Turn out he has store opening for his 'another-one'. I am in the position where I should not complain. I should not say a thing because I am nobody......... but......... I am upset. I am sad. I am... um... loads of things.

I know he feel bad and all but like I said, I have defense mechanism and it starts automatically. Waiting for the time when the defense mechanism wears off and break down...

Contradicting

The thing about this kind of relationship is...
I have these mix feelings going on in my head and struck my stomach. I am aware that he's not mine yet I claim he is. I didn't say I love him yet I couldn't get him out of my mind. I think I can handle things yet I am so spoiled with his presence. I said I will do just fine when he's not around yet I find myself sniffing his smell off his t-shirt. All things are contradicting.

However I am prepared. Any moment now that he might leave me. Chance that I might not see him live again. Possibility that he got bored of me.

...
Maybe Im not. I don't want him to go anywhere. I want to see him everyday. Is it love? I don't know...

Mission Of The Week

Be Positive

It is sooo NOT easy to be Positive. At least that's what I felt about being positive. I tend to get angry easily and that caused by my own negative thought. So I'll try my best to keep the positive energy. I kind of need that right now.

I was organizing my "war equipment" for tomorrow. Feeling happy and organized, I got a text from my marketing team. He told me there's a last-minute project for next week. A gathering. Honestly my heart dropped. But I told myself to be positive and this is totally a challenge to make me stronger. "Be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it"; I wish to be stronger, here comes the challenge. Oh my...

Bonne Nuit
Xoxo --- HAR

It is said "It's Better Late Than Never"

Yea. So much for a new year resolution. Loads of things has changed and I'm confused about where to start. So I'm just gonna babble around.

About The Work
I know I haven't talk much about my work. The latest news is... the other creative team are leaving. I am gonna be the only creative for the company for some time. I feel nothing except panicking. Although it doesn't show but I truly am panicking. So after I attending talk-show by Ajahn Brahm, bought 1 pair of chunky heels, 1 pair of yellow mustard wedges, and hair-cut, I decided to get into action.

Mission Of The Week
Inspired by a guy on twitter who made a mission of "A Week With No Complaint", I decided to make a small milestone just like him. I'll try to keep the mission fun and stick to it.

Positive
I really like this advertisement from one of the cigarette brand. I hate cigarette but I truly love the message they're trying to deliver (such a cliche). One of them says "Enaknya banyak nyamuk" (It is nice to have loads of mosquitos around) and the picture shows some guys playing fun competition catching mosquitos with the mosquito-racquet. The other advertisement says "Enaknya macet" (It is nice to be stuck in traffic jam) and the picture shows some guys racing happily in bicycle. It really is a nice message that everybody should see the positive side of things. When they actually do, they'll be happier.

That reminds me of Ajahn Brahm, a monk from Australia. I love him to the max. And yea, I do agree with some people. He's one the happiest people I've ever seen. I want to be like him. I know it takes time and studies and all. He always see things positively. Which is really great. No matter what people ask him, he always has the positive and funny answer. Such a shooting person. What a lovely person to be with.

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Anyway, I am back to writing. I can talk to ME when I write (yea, I consider a blog as a media to 'write')

XoXo --- HAR

Twenty Twelve

Happy New Year 2012.

People said new year is like a blank book. I might have to disagree with that. I think new year is like a book full of strategies and hopes. It is not guaranteed if all the plans will work but that's how it's gonna be. Trial and error... and eventually, succeed :)

That's why everybody should have something called "New Years Resolution. I never really have one every year coz I believe things will just happened by itself... Which is totally stupid. I tried to make one and, honestly, I never achieved those. So here are my resolutions. Hopefully I'm gonna be able to make it happen.

1. Future Planning
Yes. I am now working in an event organizing company which I totally love since this is what I've been wanting to do. But hey... My lifestyle and my standard is really high. I couldn't live on the salary they pay me. I worth so much more. And from my observation, those people are rich because they own the business. So yes. I need to start a new business. And I need to plan this properly coz I want to get this project running by July 2012.

2. Stop Procrastinating
If there is something I just love to do... That will be procrastinating. I just want to do it "later". This is not a good habit. I really wanna change this coz this habit affects every single thing I do.

3. Hit 63kg or lower
Yes. I've been really healthy at 63kg. And look at me now 10 kg heavier at 73. I need to lose those. Seriously. I need to look fabulous.

4. Save IDR 10,000,000 untouched
I still want to go to Paris. And for that I need the money. So, I need to start saving. In order for me to save, I need to make a financial report, along with financial planning and stick to it.

5. Family & Friends Privilege
Yea... I think I have been acting like an outsider. A stranger. I should spend more time with my family and friends. I should listen more to them and stop being such an egoist person.

6. Be Patient
Just be patient :)

Xoxo, HAR

Nike Grand Indonesia store opening

I love twitter. It is my main source for news update, entertainment, or even gossips (keep reading, I will get to the point of where it is relevant to the title). I follow DJs, my friends, people I envy, places I like and few cool random people.

One of the people I follow is Anton Wirjono. He's a DJ, the co-founder of The Goods Dept, producer of Agrikulture and many more. I love everything he created / produced. Well, The Goods Dept is totally my favorite place now. The Goods Cafe included (their Baileys shake and bread pudding is to die for). I love his music. I love Agrikulture. Anyway, he made a quiz on twitter. Winner get invites to the NIKE Grand Indonesia store opening on 5 April. All we need to do is post a picture of our favorite Nike.

I went out and took one of the NIKEssssssssssssss my brother has (he's a shoe collector). I took a picture of it and send it. And I won! I got the invitation! How cool is that? I know how much my brother love Nike and he would enjoy this!

The event is today. It was great! I met Anton Wirjono and thanked him. He's a cool dude. He's very friendly and nice to talk to. The music was GREAT!! I had an eargasm!! I met few cool people too. I am really happy!!!

Every invitees get booze, food, music performance and goodie bag. And it means exactly that. Beer was everywhere and kept on coming. I had Baileys shake (my truly favorite from The Goods Cafe). Bread pudding. There were giveaways too and my brother got a jacket. He had to answer a question and what does he not know? He's a big fan for God's sake. Nobody could answer the next question either but the MC didn't allow him to answer the question anymore lol. I didn't get the shoe or the lucky draw but that doesn't matter.

Agrikulture performance was beyond my expectation. It was really great! I didn't even know they exist untill today. And they are different but in a good way :) I had a conversation with Fandy, the vocalist, who turned out to be really friendly and funny too. I just love all the people I met today. He told me that their second album is coming soon. I'm totally gonna buy it :D

The highlight of the day? I went out and had fun with my brother :)

Dance Dance With Me Baby

This group is called Kazaky. These four sexy creature are from Ukraine. Have you seen how they dance? With stilettos! No joke. I have to give credit for their moves, their power, their sharpness, their flexibility and everything else. WOW!!!

And this video made me wet. The fact that they have six-packs, those sweats, their killer eyes, those curves when they dance just... Unbelievable.

This video made me wanna dance even more! I'm a dancer. I'm good at it. I just need practice and I'm sure I can dance just like that. I have the power and the energy. Someday, I'll make a video of me dancing and I will tell the world that I'm a dancer. It sounds lame, but it actually means something to me when people know I'm a dancer ;)

So...

I have been feeling very nervous for the past one week. I went to an interview on Thursday with a company I love so much. I had an interview with the Brand Manager herself and it went well. So she told me that she liked me and would arrange a meeting for me to meet up with her boss, the head PR of the company. I was really confident and happy. Once I stepped outside the building, I got a call from the company to set up a meeting with the boss the following day.

So I did. I came early as usual and I met him. He seemed kinda fun. Different from the interview I had the day before, he didn't ask me technical questions. Here are some of the questions he asked (from what I remember):

Him : Let's say, your boyfriend... Do you have a boyfriend at the moment?
Me : No.
Him : Ok. So let's say you have a boyfriend later and he doesn't like your job. What are you gonna do?
Me : Alright. Well, I'm currently single. If I will have boyfriend later, I supposed we would have the same interest at some point or we wouldn't even be together in the first place. There's should be no problem. (Here's what I wanted to add but I didn't : "If he still doesn't like what I do, I'll take him there then he'll know how fun my job is").

Him : Do you drink?
Me : Yea. But I haven't been drinking lately.
Him : Why?
Me : Well, I haven't been to club yet this year. You can say I'm a social drinker.
Him : Do you smoke?
Me : Nope.
Him : You have to.
Me : Hmm... can you give me 10 reasons why I have to smoke? (I was joking... So we won't be so tense)
Him : (thinking)... So you'll be crazy.. Haha. I don't know either... Well, our job is to make people happy and they can have fun. So we have to be fun too. What will you do if you're suddenly in a bad mood while you have to work?
Me : See, professionalism is really important to me. For an instance, if I go to a restaurant and the waitress, being in a bad mood, and shove me the menu, I wouldn't be so kin on that. Since, I don't like people doing it to me, I wouldn't do that either. (Here's what I wanted to add but didn't : "Besides, I can deal with myself and not affect others during my job. I keep my professionalism")

Him : Let's say when you work then your Blackberry ringing non stop with 3 customers at the same time with different needs... what are you gonna do?
Me : I will see thru the enquiries and focus on each reply.
Him : So you won't answer in a wrong window... Yea I got what you mean.

Him : We have loads of events, and what do you think if you have to wear weird costumes sometimes?
Me : No problem. What's wrong with it, right.

So, that's (more or less) how it went. Finally he told me that they would contact me in a week. That's when I totally lost my confident because I thought they would hire me straight away. So ever since last Friday, I had been very nervous waiting for their call. I know it hasn't been exactly one week but tomorrow is holiday so I don't think they will call.

And... Just to show how passionate I am about this, I even showed up during their 8th Anniversary party. Somehow I wonder why they don't call. What is it that they think I don't fit into. Anyway, it's time for me to look for a job again :) Wish me luck :D <3

Good night xx

Fairy Tale

I think life is like fairy tale. One just doesn't realize it because they don't know the ending just yet. The only difference is that they have witches, prince, castle while we have bitches, cute guy, grand houses.

I don't know how mine would end but I truly believe that I do live in one fairy tale myself. I met my first love when I was in Junior High School. I think my friends already know what his name is since I repeat it over and over again. His name is Daniel. He was my best friend (or at least I thought so until he drastically changed). I met Ian after that whom successfully made me forget Daniel. And if you are my best friend or have been reading my blog, you should know that it didn't go well between me and Ian. And my heart is now belong to him.

So, what about Daniel and why did I bring it up again? I met him. Last Saturday. So I was hanging out with my friend Stefanus at Grand Indonesia when I met him. He was wearing purple. I was in shock when I spot him but I greet him anyway. The conversation went like this:
Me : Hey Daniel. How are you? What are you doing here?
Him : Hey I'm good. Well, I'm back for good.
Me : Owh?
Him : Yea, I'm currently working here in Jakarta.
Me : Owh yea? Where at?
Him : Sunter.
Me : Owh alright. Where do you stay?
Him : Sunter. So I stay at Sunter and work at Sunter as well.
Me : Owh I see.
Him : What about you? I thought you were in Kuching?
Me : Yea but I came back to Jakarta few years ago.
Him : For good?
Me : I hope not.
Him : Why?
Me : I'm not a big fan of Jakarta. Traffic and all. Aren't they stressing? lol
...

And the conversation went on. I asked for his Blackberry pin and he did gave me so we're now contact thru Blackberry Messenger.

I was really excited. But when my friends asked me "Do you still have feelings for him?"... I couldn't answer it.

He has now become like a character in a book I read. It's like when you read a story like Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty or Rapunzel; and now imagine if the prince (if you're a guy then imagine the Cinderella) appear before your eyes. That's exactly how I felt when I saw him. Yes, I envy him. Yes, he looks really good. Yes, I've always dreamed to be in the story. Yes, I did want to meet the prince. But do I love him? No, I don't think so.

Anyway, I hope we could be friends. Just like old times right before I had feelings for him. One more thing, I've been wanting to give to him, but everytime I see him, I'd totally chickened out. It's the initial "D" (no, not the movie) pendant I've wore for 11 years. I couldn't give it to him. Yes, it stands for "Daniel" but I couldn't give it to him. I've wore this for too long to give it to him and have him throw it away. Therefore I declare that this "D" no longer stands for "Daniel" but it stands for "Dance" and "DJ" now :)

Good Afternoon xx

Left Out

I realized that I have this fear of being left out. Today, out of nowhere, everybody is asking me out. And this one guy even asked me more than once (to different places).

Stef : "Hey, I'm looking for a shoe and I could use a girl's opinion. Do you wanna come with me? I was thinking Senayan City maybe?"
Me : "No I can't. I just got back from facial and I look horrible"
Stef : "Owh cmon... I'm sure it's not that bad"
Me : "No.. Sorry"
Stef : "Ok.."

Few hours later...

Stef : "Hey, let's just go to Starbucks?"
Me : "Not today..."

Few hours later...

Stef : "I feel like going to a club"
Me : "Go then..."
Stef : "But I don't wanna go on my own"
*owh cmon...*

And some other friend of mine too. It's like suddenly everybody wanna go out tonight.

Waleed : "Hey, do you have plan tonight?"
Me : "Na.. I'm gonna stay home tonight"

Then...

Rizky : "Heyyyyyyy Let's go outtttt to X2 or something"
Me : "I can't..."
Rizky : "Why?"
Me : "I can't be too late. My family is gonna complaint"
Rizky "Ugh... You're so not cool"

That conversation made me realize how much I'm afraid of being left out. I want to go out with them because I wanna be that "fun-friend" of theirs so they will keep in touch with me. Why would I feel that?

I remember once I said to myself: why bother to keep in touch with people who don't even want you in their life? And yet now I am so afraid of losing them. Clearly they only want to do fun stuff only with me but why do I feel this way? It's like as if I always want to be that so-called happening girl.

I can't always please everybody and obviously I'm not that IT girl. I need to refresh myself...
Good night xx

Lust Is In The Air

I've gained bad reputation from the way I party and the people I hang with last time. Somehow nobody really talks about that anymore but I sense something else is on its way. Now it's from the way people interpret my pictures. I have to admit that I did take pictures which might intrigue people to think differently. However, I never thought it would be that bad.

Some people said it's from the way I dress. Even my sister-in-law told me that if she would to describe my style, she would say sexy... Not just sexy - sexy but "daring" kind of sexy. And many others said the same thing. Some even describe my style as "bitchy". I don't know if I should feel flattered or ashamed? Well, I don't plan on changing my style because I am comfortable and more confident with it. But if that make me look like a freakin prostitute... I need to change it... I need some honest opinion.

Anyway, I was experimenting with this piece of cloth free from Cosmopolitan Indonesia magazine. It supposed to be a vest from (X)S.M.L but I just couldn't tie it like they did so I made my own. Just want to make full use of it rather than using it as a shawl only. I'm pretty satisfied. However tho. This picture did become "something"... Anyway, here's another version of the vest.

It looked so much better from the back but I didn't take a picture of it. Will do next time ;)

Good night xx

No String Attached

I know there's a movie with the exact same title. But I'm not here to review about the movie. This is my blog and the last time I check, this blog was not about movie reviews.

I was thinking about MY friend with benefit. I realize that we really are "friends with benefit". We use each other openly and nobody mind. Maybe because we both know there is no way we could be together in the future. First, I'm buddhist and he's moslem. Second, I'm Indonesian and he's Malaysian. Third, we have nothing in common that we could barely have a long conversation. The only thing we have in common is to use each other. I'm not proud of it but that's the fact.

We were chatting thru inbox on Facebook when he said "I want you desperately"... And I know right away what he meant by that. That made me think... Why am I doing this? I have plenty of answer for this question:
# 2009 tragedy has totally shut my door for trusting people and real love. Basically it is really hard for me to trust people... EVER... Especially when people told me they love me. I think it's bullshit.

# I kinda enjoy this anyway. I get to be with someone when I need to and yet I'm free to flirt with anyone I want. I can kiss anyone I want and I can sleep with anyone I feel like sleeping with. And my "friend-with-benefit"? He has no right to be jealous. He has no right to ask me questions. He doesn't own me like Ian does.

# Because I can.

And for now I do not see anything wrong with what I'm doing. Maybe someday when I look back I will find something negative bout this but I'm really enjoying this at the moment. As the matter of fact, I think I should find more "friends"...

Good night xx

Baby

I was browsing through my Facebook when I came across Tracy's picture of her son, Tristan. He's her son with Leo, Ian's brother. But they are no longer together. I mean, Tracy has a new boyfriend and so does Leo.

I don't understand how can two people who have baby together are not together? If a guy got me pregnant, I want him to be with me. He couldn't just fuck me and leave me with a baby. Don't get me wrong, I love babies. I want to have a baby but I don't want to have it alone. I sure couldn't have one on my own coz I need part of someone else to make a baby so hell yeah I want that someone to be part of my baby's life too.

The more I look at the pictures, the more I see Nashville's face. He looks like his father (and mother too of course). If I am the one with the baby and my baby' father is not with me, I would be a lil frustrated because I see the father' face everyday. There will be a lil hate and a lil missing him feeling.

Maybe it's different with Tracy because her and Leo are still in good term but they are not together. Or maybe it's just me who think so. Anyway, I wouldn't want that because I couldn't live with such condition.

Good night...

I screwed it up :S

Ever since the interview with the G company, I couldn't get my mind off one thing I said during the interview. It was about the expected salary. I don't know the standard of the salary these days (which is my fault) and I set my standard wayyyyy too much and now they will never call me back. And yes I am being negative because I know it's true. Interview always ask about expected salary because every company has their budget and I totally set mine wayyyyyyyyyyy pass that. The point is, I screwed it up.

However, I got another interview at an Event Organizing company and it's somewhat promising. Maybe it's a sign from the universe that the job from G company is just not for me. And insisting on it will only push my luck away. At first I was devastated when I realized the mistake I made but now when I come to think of it, I am more subtle and calm.

I have to go through this second part of the interview with the EO company on Monday. The director wants to see my work. I don't mind working for them. Maybe the universe is trying to tell me to work with them. I'll see how things go.

For now, let's go to sleep.
Good night xx

First Interview

So it's my first interview of the two that I have this week. It was with the G Company. I was a lil nervous because this company requires fashionable person and I'm not sure if I'm fashionable enough for them. Personally I think my style is ok. But I'd never know what people think of the way I dress. So I asked few people bout what they think of my style.

1. My Sister
Me : "If you have to define my style, what is the word?"
Sist : "Fun. You love to play with colors and accessories"

2. Egie
Me : "Egie, if you have to define my style, what will you say?"
Egie : "Hm..." *silent* "Bold! Yea... Bold!"
Me : "Like my Blackberry... Nice"

3. My friend, Stiven (without me asking)
Stiven : "Hmm... You have this bitchy style. But somehow it fits you"
Me : "................................."

I don't know what my style is but I do love fashion. And I love how my friend or my family asks fashion suggestion from me. Like when they send me their pictures in the fitting room and asking if it looks ok... And I feel really great when they are happy with my suggestion.

The interview went alright. The position that they offered is Marketing Communication Executive. Hell, I don't know much about Marketing but I can learn bout it and I will. First I was interviewed with a fun looking girl named Angela. And then another dude name Angga. He was fun too. And those are the most fun interview that I had ever attended:
Angga : "Do you read magazines?"
Me : "Yes! Of course I do"
Angga : "What magazine?"
Me : "Cosmopolitan, Cleo, Harper's Bazaar, Instyle, Hello, Elle... Even teenager magazine like GoGirl!"

Angga : "So, who's your favorite designer?"

Me : "Vivienne Westwood"

Angga : "Why?"

Me : "Normal clothes comes in normal or regular shapes. But not her. She has this unique shape, ruffles, laces..."

Angga : "Patterns... Owh yea, totally. I got your point."

Me : "I love Guess too"

Angga : "Really?"

Me : *putting my bag on the desk... It's Guess*

Angga : "Oh my God! Guess bag!"

Me : "Yea, and my watch is Guess too"

Angga : *excited* "Owh! My team should see this!! This is Guess too" *showing me his watch* "Anyway..."

How can I not like him? I like him. I like this job. So I really have to keep my fingers crossed because I start to fall in love with this company like I did with my previous company. Here are few key points which made me fall in love:

#My job will be around fashion world

#My job will involve event organizing

#My job will involve travelling

#My job requires me to meet people from everywhere

It's hard to not like it. It's what I've been looking for. The only obstacle now is my background which is not in marketing... At the end of the interview he told me that he need to talk to his boss and they will be in touch... 

Hoping...

Good night

xx